Attention, this could be a bit long... .
I'd be thankful if you'd keep on reading though and give some advice or just tell your opinion. :)
We're both in our (very) late 20's. Married for 15 months. Together for 3 years. Half of this time was fighting a big distance between us. (He left his home town to live with me.)
The rest was filled with good times and also bad times, as for people who we thought to be friends backstabbed us a lot, which almost lead to us breaking up. Once again, we got through it and here we are still together.
We are both in a job situation, which could be better. Trying to establish an own little company, making some money where we can, living okay from it, but not having a stable 9am - 5pm day job with a stable big income.
We see each other all the time. And yet I feel like we don't know each other too well and don't really spend enough of this so called "quality time" together, even though we do sit together a lot, watch movies together and so on. It's nice to be together so much, but sometimes of course it's challenging. When we don't see each other for some hours though, we do miss each other a lot.
Our life became pretty boring... we live in a boring small town at the moment. There is literally nothing to do here. We want to move away in some months, but that's still just a plan in our heads. We lost pretty much all our friends due to the backstabbing and intrigues against us and also because we both changed towns to be able to live together.
In those past months there was a lot of stress for both of us... sickness, money, bureaucracy, even getting robbed. Every time when we thought now we can relax and concentrate on the good again something new happened. As if we're a magnet for such things.
As for our sex life: of course this all affected us a lot.
In the beginning we had a good healthy sex life. Lots of action. Every day at least something. :D Now we barely french kiss. We do cuddle and smooch a lot, but when he occasionally puts his tongue into my mouth I am so surprised that I can't even really react to it with kissing back. We are more of the spontaneous sex kind. But lately I can count on one hand the times we have sex per month. I think even in the whole 2014 it's not been more than two hands full, if at all. I don't know what keeps us from it. From a physical point we both do want/need it. He said often to me, if I want him, I should just take him. I asked him if it is ok when I touch his privates whenever I want to and he said sure it is. And still, I feel too shy or as if he would not really want me to. So I don't touch him that much. I don't give him blow jobs anymore. I don't just take off his clothes. I am losing the wish to do all that even. I am losing this irresistible attraction towards him. There's no s park. No animalistic "I need you now!" anymore. Just a daily routine of a boring life with not much motivation. We both stopped working out together. We are so lazy now. We stay at home, stare into our phones or on the computer screen and wait for things to become better. I hate it!
I want fun and happiness. Motivation. Love. Lust. I want to live like bunnies. I want to want to do it with him all the time. I want him to feel the same way! I want to be sexy and kinky and I want to feel this uncontrollable attraction for him again. I want to feel the electricity when we touch. I want him to need me. I want that he longs to touch me. How do I get that (back)???
I'd be thankful if you'd keep on reading though and give some advice or just tell your opinion. :)
We're both in our (very) late 20's. Married for 15 months. Together for 3 years. Half of this time was fighting a big distance between us. (He left his home town to live with me.)
The rest was filled with good times and also bad times, as for people who we thought to be friends backstabbed us a lot, which almost lead to us breaking up. Once again, we got through it and here we are still together.
We are both in a job situation, which could be better. Trying to establish an own little company, making some money where we can, living okay from it, but not having a stable 9am - 5pm day job with a stable big income.
We see each other all the time. And yet I feel like we don't know each other too well and don't really spend enough of this so called "quality time" together, even though we do sit together a lot, watch movies together and so on. It's nice to be together so much, but sometimes of course it's challenging. When we don't see each other for some hours though, we do miss each other a lot.
Our life became pretty boring... we live in a boring small town at the moment. There is literally nothing to do here. We want to move away in some months, but that's still just a plan in our heads. We lost pretty much all our friends due to the backstabbing and intrigues against us and also because we both changed towns to be able to live together.
In those past months there was a lot of stress for both of us... sickness, money, bureaucracy, even getting robbed. Every time when we thought now we can relax and concentrate on the good again something new happened. As if we're a magnet for such things.
As for our sex life: of course this all affected us a lot.
In the beginning we had a good healthy sex life. Lots of action. Every day at least something. :D Now we barely french kiss. We do cuddle and smooch a lot, but when he occasionally puts his tongue into my mouth I am so surprised that I can't even really react to it with kissing back. We are more of the spontaneous sex kind. But lately I can count on one hand the times we have sex per month. I think even in the whole 2014 it's not been more than two hands full, if at all. I don't know what keeps us from it. From a physical point we both do want/need it. He said often to me, if I want him, I should just take him. I asked him if it is ok when I touch his privates whenever I want to and he said sure it is. And still, I feel too shy or as if he would not really want me to. So I don't touch him that much. I don't give him blow jobs anymore. I don't just take off his clothes. I am losing the wish to do all that even. I am losing this irresistible attraction towards him. There's no s park. No animalistic "I need you now!" anymore. Just a daily routine of a boring life with not much motivation. We both stopped working out together. We are so lazy now. We stay at home, stare into our phones or on the computer screen and wait for things to become better. I hate it!
I want fun and happiness. Motivation. Love. Lust. I want to live like bunnies. I want to want to do it with him all the time. I want him to feel the same way! I want to be sexy and kinky and I want to feel this uncontrollable attraction for him again. I want to feel the electricity when we touch. I want him to need me. I want that he longs to touch me. How do I get that (back)???
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