Ok, so let me explain. I'm an Erasmus student studying in Spain, and have been here since last September. In October/November time, I started to have something with a Spanish girl. She came out one night with me and my friends and we kissed, and after that we went out a few more times together.
Before it went on to anything else, however (ie. sex), she went, behind my back with another Erasmus student. The way the whole situation happened was very strange, because he had invited me to a party one night, and when we met up she was alongside him. That night at the party they were all over each other, and later he took her home drunk (after which Im pretty much certain they had sex).
I readily admit that it happened because I made a number of silly mistakes (of which I won't go into detail here, but which have been revealed to me from talking to friends).
Ok, I understand it's not cheating, but it still made me feel bad. I didn't realize at the time how much it affected me, but it's made me very insecure about myself and really hurt me.
Whenever anyone reacts even slightly badly to anything I say or do, I blame myself and think it's because I've got some sort of problem, and I keep having this thought in the back of my mind like 'I'm not good enough'.
I would appreciate anyone's advice/thoughts
Thanks
Before it went on to anything else, however (ie. sex), she went, behind my back with another Erasmus student. The way the whole situation happened was very strange, because he had invited me to a party one night, and when we met up she was alongside him. That night at the party they were all over each other, and later he took her home drunk (after which Im pretty much certain they had sex).
I readily admit that it happened because I made a number of silly mistakes (of which I won't go into detail here, but which have been revealed to me from talking to friends).
Ok, I understand it's not cheating, but it still made me feel bad. I didn't realize at the time how much it affected me, but it's made me very insecure about myself and really hurt me.
Whenever anyone reacts even slightly badly to anything I say or do, I blame myself and think it's because I've got some sort of problem, and I keep having this thought in the back of my mind like 'I'm not good enough'.
I would appreciate anyone's advice/thoughts
Thanks
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