So I was with my ex for 2 and a half years, when she suddenly turned round and said she wasn't attracted to me anymore, and didn't love me anymore. Apparently it wasn't my fault and she'd just changed, but I found this really hurtful, and sudden, so have been in a complete spiral of depression lately. I've been described Floxetine which is an antidepressant and counselling, however they have yet to improve my mood. (the break up was early January, and I've been on the meds since mid February)
After this, I met a girl who I got involved with at the beginning of March, and this seemed to make me happier, but now she's turned round and said she's changed her mind too, and doesn't want to be with me.
I'm finding this increasingly difficult, and my mood is at an all time low at the moment, I just can't find any reasons to be alive, or exist really. I'm on a gap year at the moment so all my friends have gone to uni and forgotten about me - I've asked to meet up multiple times but they're always too busy or not interested. I have a place at Liverpool John Moores in September, but I'm just nervous nobody there will like me either, and I just hate myself more and more every day. I never used to have a problem with what anybody thought of me, or confidence issues - I'm extremely self-confident, but these last few months have completely ripped me to shreds. In some respects, I don't feel comfortable unless I'm 'with' somebody else, I can't do one night stands and things, I just don't get them (yes, I am a guy..) but I just don't really know what to do about my self-hatred, and lack of willingness to try ever again. Everything seems quite hopeless..
Sorry for the long OP, I don't really know what I'm expecting here, but has anyone been in a similar situation..?
Thanks
After this, I met a girl who I got involved with at the beginning of March, and this seemed to make me happier, but now she's turned round and said she's changed her mind too, and doesn't want to be with me.
I'm finding this increasingly difficult, and my mood is at an all time low at the moment, I just can't find any reasons to be alive, or exist really. I'm on a gap year at the moment so all my friends have gone to uni and forgotten about me - I've asked to meet up multiple times but they're always too busy or not interested. I have a place at Liverpool John Moores in September, but I'm just nervous nobody there will like me either, and I just hate myself more and more every day. I never used to have a problem with what anybody thought of me, or confidence issues - I'm extremely self-confident, but these last few months have completely ripped me to shreds. In some respects, I don't feel comfortable unless I'm 'with' somebody else, I can't do one night stands and things, I just don't get them (yes, I am a guy..) but I just don't really know what to do about my self-hatred, and lack of willingness to try ever again. Everything seems quite hopeless..
Sorry for the long OP, I don't really know what I'm expecting here, but has anyone been in a similar situation..?
Thanks
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