I've been married for 8 years and in this time me and my husband have got along ok I guess. we are good friends. we have children together. However, sex just doesn't happen. we now sleep in separate rooms which started when our daughter wouldn't sleep well on her own. He is not affectionate towards me although he is with our children.
I feel more and more alone in the marriage as I stay home all day and I'm pretty cut off from the outside world as I don't drive or have many friends. I'm currently looking for work and rebuilding myself.
There's a guy i've liked for 10 years. we always kept in touch through email off and on and we always flirted but nothing else. Recently we messaged each other intensely and it got very sexual. he always backed off as hes also married and feels terrible guilt about it. We met up. nothing happened, we were with friends, not alone together but we both agreed there was a spark.
Now the contact has stopped as he was overcome with guilt.
I know for a fact I would sleep with him given the chance.
I don't know why I don't feel the guilt he does, i think i just enjoy feeling that spark inside me again. the excitement.
Anyway I felt very down over the last week as i missed him so much after our little moment together. i keep checking to see if he's messaged me since but i don't think he will.
today i told my husband i just don't love him any more.
i thought it was only fair that i'm honest. If i have feelings for other men then I should at least tell my husband its over first.
I love my husband for being a good father and friend. He's a little bossy towards me at times (I get treated like a child which makes me feel repressed)
i feel terrible for telling him i'm not in love with him any more but isn't it good that i was honest? im doing the right thing in saying we need to separate aren't i?
I feel more and more alone in the marriage as I stay home all day and I'm pretty cut off from the outside world as I don't drive or have many friends. I'm currently looking for work and rebuilding myself.
There's a guy i've liked for 10 years. we always kept in touch through email off and on and we always flirted but nothing else. Recently we messaged each other intensely and it got very sexual. he always backed off as hes also married and feels terrible guilt about it. We met up. nothing happened, we were with friends, not alone together but we both agreed there was a spark.
Now the contact has stopped as he was overcome with guilt.
I know for a fact I would sleep with him given the chance.
I don't know why I don't feel the guilt he does, i think i just enjoy feeling that spark inside me again. the excitement.
Anyway I felt very down over the last week as i missed him so much after our little moment together. i keep checking to see if he's messaged me since but i don't think he will.
today i told my husband i just don't love him any more.
i thought it was only fair that i'm honest. If i have feelings for other men then I should at least tell my husband its over first.
I love my husband for being a good father and friend. He's a little bossy towards me at times (I get treated like a child which makes me feel repressed)
i feel terrible for telling him i'm not in love with him any more but isn't it good that i was honest? im doing the right thing in saying we need to separate aren't i?
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