I am finally coming to grips that I am severely depressed. I don't want to be around anyone, just let me sleep. I wish people would just leave me alone.
I am having a difficult time just getting through work let alone having to answer to people about my problem.
I know the root of where my problem begins. Married 16 years to a person that was full on npd with passive aggressive behaviors. Relationships here and there but none that could make it through my hard shell. I majorly rug sweep my hurt, anger. So now I am 20 plus years into not dealing. Ya ask how it's helped me with all the rug sweeping behavior??? Not worth a d&&&&
Yes I am venting because I am angry, in my little world that has been my protection, behavior, life.
I bought a journal today to try and write things down, rational or not. I have made an appointment to start IC and will try and figure how how to pay for it since I don't have good health insurance.
How do I get people to back off and give me the space I truly want????
Tears as I type. I don't want to work through the pain and figure it out, wish all would disappear
I am having a difficult time just getting through work let alone having to answer to people about my problem.
I know the root of where my problem begins. Married 16 years to a person that was full on npd with passive aggressive behaviors. Relationships here and there but none that could make it through my hard shell. I majorly rug sweep my hurt, anger. So now I am 20 plus years into not dealing. Ya ask how it's helped me with all the rug sweeping behavior??? Not worth a d&&&&
Yes I am venting because I am angry, in my little world that has been my protection, behavior, life.
I bought a journal today to try and write things down, rational or not. I have made an appointment to start IC and will try and figure how how to pay for it since I don't have good health insurance.
How do I get people to back off and give me the space I truly want????
Tears as I type. I don't want to work through the pain and figure it out, wish all would disappear
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