Been married 4 months to a guy I really thought was just the perfect fit for me. Im Canadian , moved to USA to live with my now husband. We live literally right next door/same property to his whole family and 24 hours away from mine.
I totally left my family and friends and everything I had to be here with him... Just makes me feel alone and like I cant talk to anyone here cause its all his roots and If I call anyone from home they would think Ive made a huge mistake when im not totally sure I want to give up so fast.
He has a huge temper problem and such a short fuse. His family is used to it and have learned to ignore it very well. I cannot. First I try to walk away, let me tell you t his isnt easy. We live in the country and cant walk anywhere really. While my immigration stuff isnt complete yet I dont have a license or a car to just get up and go. I try to go to the bed room or sit outside.. He always follows to keep up the fight. Its downright embarrassing that his whole family can hear all thats going on cause were so close.
I cant take it! When walking away doesnt work I fight back and lose control myself. I scream and yell right back telling him Im gonna pack and leave.. he then takes my phone and computer so I have zero contact with anybody. Ive tried to walk next door to use the phone, he will pick me up and hold me or block the door. I do love him and dont want to see him like this.
I know I have blame here too. I think I have depression issues and take things to heart too much. When we fight I do help escalate the situation by not backing down and always ready to threaten divorce. I seriously could go on and in further detail but I think Ive given a good idea at the situation. Im afraid to tell my family about some of our fights in fear they wont like him and wont come visit me.
Weve gotten physical with each other twice:( He always blames me for his outburst and treats me like a child by either turning the car around and heading home. taking tv out of the bedroom, even spanked me like a kid. I know Im rambling. Had a really hard night last night and just need to let it out and hopefully find someone to talk to
I totally left my family and friends and everything I had to be here with him... Just makes me feel alone and like I cant talk to anyone here cause its all his roots and If I call anyone from home they would think Ive made a huge mistake when im not totally sure I want to give up so fast.
He has a huge temper problem and such a short fuse. His family is used to it and have learned to ignore it very well. I cannot. First I try to walk away, let me tell you t his isnt easy. We live in the country and cant walk anywhere really. While my immigration stuff isnt complete yet I dont have a license or a car to just get up and go. I try to go to the bed room or sit outside.. He always follows to keep up the fight. Its downright embarrassing that his whole family can hear all thats going on cause were so close.
I cant take it! When walking away doesnt work I fight back and lose control myself. I scream and yell right back telling him Im gonna pack and leave.. he then takes my phone and computer so I have zero contact with anybody. Ive tried to walk next door to use the phone, he will pick me up and hold me or block the door. I do love him and dont want to see him like this.
I know I have blame here too. I think I have depression issues and take things to heart too much. When we fight I do help escalate the situation by not backing down and always ready to threaten divorce. I seriously could go on and in further detail but I think Ive given a good idea at the situation. Im afraid to tell my family about some of our fights in fear they wont like him and wont come visit me.
Weve gotten physical with each other twice:( He always blames me for his outburst and treats me like a child by either turning the car around and heading home. taking tv out of the bedroom, even spanked me like a kid. I know Im rambling. Had a really hard night last night and just need to let it out and hopefully find someone to talk to
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