Hi all
AMA - I have been in a relationship 3 years with a man I live with. We haven't slept together for months - he's not that into it, and frankly I'm now not that into it as he has put on weight. I do still love him and I can't imagine walking away from the emotional and financial security.
He is good to me however we do fight as well as not have sex,I have mental health issues and he resents me for them i think. I constantly feel I let him down and he sees me as childish so I think why bother sometimes. I drink and use drugs which sometimes effects us.
anyway I met a man at work. He is of a different race to me (just getting that out the way as it's not a factor or anything) and older. I was flattered when he told me he was into me as he is attractive. We have spent time together and so far have not done anything 'wrong' but I intend to meet him tonight and I know in the back of my mind I will sleep with him. I want to.
I'm posting this warily as I know I'm likely to get a lot of outright hate, or the troll accusations that have become common on here. But I want to do this AMA to ask myself questions that are difficult really. Because right now I don't feel guilty. And I don't know why that is, surely that isn't normal. I'm wondering if it has anything to do with my meds or metal health, or whether I'm just a horrible person.
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