So I met with this guy on tinder. I had it for fun and I've never met with anyone before but I couldn't stop myself from meeting him. He aroused and terrified me. I don't mean in term or emotions, I mean he is actually a scary man. I knew I wasn't meeting for a future relationship. I think I like him because he's very intelligent.
So I meet with him for drinks. He didn't want to pay for me. Odd but I'm a feminist so I won't complain. So I go back to his. I knew it was sex deal and I knew it was our only chance to meet before I went home for uni holidays.
So after hours of talking we finally get down to it. Even though I'd only just met him it was the most intimate experience of my life. He was amazing and I'm not sure I'll ever **** like that again in my life. He made me stay the night for cuddles, which I thought was weird and checked the next day how I was.
Anyway when he returned to town he wanted to meet for round two but I'm at home so I couldn't. Long story short. I don't think I'm cut out for casual relationships so I tell him I don't want to see him again. Instead of accepting this and just being like bye then, he starts arguing with me. He says he doesn't think he'll want a relationship with me but that maybe there is something between is that good for both of us.
Why the **** would he mess with my head? He clearly has a lot of sex with a lot of women. Maybe he just likes to see how easily he can manipulate me?
Problem is that I'm weak, I know I shouldn't see him again but being with him, even just talking to him is amazing. I fear that if he carries on I will give in.
Basically what should I do?
Also why am I so weak and attracted to him?
Put the internet to work for you.
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