My Wife is diagnosed with; Paranoia, Anxiety, depression, Fibro, short term memory loss, diabetes, pacemaker, allergies to corn, soy, eggs, and shellfish. Random emotions, PTSD, Seizures.
My wife can't be left alone, her mental illness gives her suicidal compulsions, but can't take medication due to her PTSD. I can't keep a job because I can to come home to her resque daily. I'd like to get a caretaker but she only trusts myself and her ex-husband, to her everyone else is trying to kill her.
She only eats McDonalds, its the only food she feels safe eating. I can't cook for her because she's paranoid I'll poison her food. Since I can't keep a job, we can't pay our bills or for her McDonalds food. If there's no McDonalds, she won't eat. And then her blood sugar gets too low, and sometime I've had to resesatate her.
Recently we found a way to get by. Her ex-husband comes over on tuesdays and thursdays to take care of her while I go to a part time job willing to work with our situation. But yesterday my wife told me she has feelings for her ex-husband again.
I have to go to work so we can live, but in order to do that I have to leave her in the care of a man she has romantic feelings for.
I'm so stressed and exhausted. You'd never know she has the problems she has just by looking at her. I'm the only one who cleans our home, I have to go everywhere she goes but she won't go anywhere I want to go. I don't see my friends anymore, and rarely see my family. I give her massages everyday, I walk on egg shells everyday to not trigger her PTSD, Anxiety, or Paranoia.
I feel like I lost my life, all my dreams and goals are gone. I don't know what to do. She's been in therapy for 20+ years, but it seems like its not working.
My wife can't be left alone, her mental illness gives her suicidal compulsions, but can't take medication due to her PTSD. I can't keep a job because I can to come home to her resque daily. I'd like to get a caretaker but she only trusts myself and her ex-husband, to her everyone else is trying to kill her.
She only eats McDonalds, its the only food she feels safe eating. I can't cook for her because she's paranoid I'll poison her food. Since I can't keep a job, we can't pay our bills or for her McDonalds food. If there's no McDonalds, she won't eat. And then her blood sugar gets too low, and sometime I've had to resesatate her.
Recently we found a way to get by. Her ex-husband comes over on tuesdays and thursdays to take care of her while I go to a part time job willing to work with our situation. But yesterday my wife told me she has feelings for her ex-husband again.
I have to go to work so we can live, but in order to do that I have to leave her in the care of a man she has romantic feelings for.
I'm so stressed and exhausted. You'd never know she has the problems she has just by looking at her. I'm the only one who cleans our home, I have to go everywhere she goes but she won't go anywhere I want to go. I don't see my friends anymore, and rarely see my family. I give her massages everyday, I walk on egg shells everyday to not trigger her PTSD, Anxiety, or Paranoia.
I feel like I lost my life, all my dreams and goals are gone. I don't know what to do. She's been in therapy for 20+ years, but it seems like its not working.
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