well to start off this happened several years ago. I started a new job working out of town, my wife had a job so she stayed here while i was seeing if this job would work for us. I would come home every weekend, well came home one weekend and find a guy that I know and was kinda friends with at the time paycheck stub on the floor beside my bed. I asked her about it, and she said that him and another guy came over and burnt cd's. Well i didn't think much about it cause i thought both of them were gay anyway. Well the job outta town didnt work out, so came home and wife started talking about babies and stuff. Which was cool with me, but just like all of the sudden she started talking bout it. So we end up having a beautiful baby girl the next year, and then one night I brought up that guy she once brought over to the apartment. That's when she tells me she kissed him outside of work one night. Well of course i blow up and take her home and leave for a bit. So time goes on, it was just a kiss so what. Then I start thinking about his paycheck stub on the side of the bed, and this is where most of our fights come from. All i can think is she had sex with him, but she swears to god, promises anything to try and make me believe her, but she cannot explain the paycheck stub on the floor beside that night they burnt cd's. This has been going on for a long time, the "kiss" happened in 2005 and she told me like end of 2006 or in 2007 cant remember exactly. Beside that one incident there has never been any other problems like this in my marriage, but i cannot let this go. I have trust issues, still have problems believing her, still feel so betrayed. When I talk to her about it she always says she was lonely and they just hung out and that happened. We now have 2 kids 7 and 5, own a home, got a good sex life, but i still struggle with this. I try not to talk to her about this, but sometimes it comes up. The other day we went thru all of this again and i asked her 1000 questions. She has always said she kissed him, i asked her the other day who started it and she said he did but apparently she went along with it. So i ask who kissed who, what kind of kiss which she got mad about and said she wasnt going to give details cause i didnt need to know, then she says she cant remember and thinks it was just a peck. Then she told him they couldnt be doing this cause she was married and that was it according to her. I just wish i never went out of town to try and better our situation cause it seems like it all my fault this happened. She always tells me she is sorry she hurt me, and all these years i hounded her about this the story has pretty much been the same. Like who was over burning cd's and she once told me him and another guy, when i asked her the other day she said just him, then i mention the other guy she said before then she is like oh yeah he was there i forgot. I do have to take into consideration this was like 9yrs ago almost so things can be forgotten when there no big deal. I really want to believe her and get past this but i can see or hear that guys name and it bring it to my attention, it is like my mind is consumed by this. I keep wanting to ask questions, like where all did you guys hang out at, did yall do anything else but gets no where. i would like some opinions about this, i just believe I am over thinking this whole situation, sorry so long and all over the place
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