I've been grieving the loss of a loved one for over half a year. The love was unrequited and I cut off contact with them; previously there had been a weak friendship between us that I was always desperate to make stronger. The fact that they always had a semi-superior attitude towards me and said and did some hurtful things makes the pain all the more intense.
I don't fully understand grief, but I think I am still going through it. I think about them every day obsessively. Jealous thoughts about them with others continue to make me boil despite not having spoken to them in months. Whenever I look at their public social networking the sight of them enjoying life with others in spite of my pain drives a knife through my heart. I rarely get non-fragmented sleep and many whole nights have been spent in tears.
There is almost no prospect of my feelings ever being requited and as tempted as I am to try to re-connect with them I think it would ultimately end in tears. But I cannot seem to shake my pain and it is stopping me from living my life properly. I believe I am obsessed with them in which case the grieving process may not have been able to complete itself as it would with healthier kinds of love.
Any help in understanding and overcoming my obsession and grief would be much appreciated x
I don't fully understand grief, but I think I am still going through it. I think about them every day obsessively. Jealous thoughts about them with others continue to make me boil despite not having spoken to them in months. Whenever I look at their public social networking the sight of them enjoying life with others in spite of my pain drives a knife through my heart. I rarely get non-fragmented sleep and many whole nights have been spent in tears.
There is almost no prospect of my feelings ever being requited and as tempted as I am to try to re-connect with them I think it would ultimately end in tears. But I cannot seem to shake my pain and it is stopping me from living my life properly. I believe I am obsessed with them in which case the grieving process may not have been able to complete itself as it would with healthier kinds of love.
Any help in understanding and overcoming my obsession and grief would be much appreciated x
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