Hi, so this might be a little long but I'd really appreciate if people read it.
Basically I've been in a long distance relationship for almost a year now and I love my girlfriend so much. I seriously never thought I could ever feel this way about a person.
Anyway the thing is we both think she may be bi-polar because she pretty much suffers from every symptom, from mood swings to exhaustion to self doubt etc etc... it's only she doesn't want to tell anyone else about and only I know. Her parents are really horrible to her and I think she's scared they'll just call her a liar or won't care or something.
I've been helping her deal with it as much and as well as I can. I'm always there for her or I give her space when she needs it (although I actually suffer from depression, which is getting better, so it's caused a couple clashes in the past) and I try to be really patient for her.
My major problem is that she has the mood that she gets in which I've only seen about 4-5 times where she says she's really numb and she wants to be hurt (physically). She literally asked me yesterday if I could beat her up. Obviously I refused because I love her to bits and there is not a part of me that could do something like that to her. She keeps telling me she needs it though and I really don't know how to help her, especially considering I'm 4000 miles away so I wouldn't be able to do that for her yet even if I wanted to (WHICH I DON'T).
I'm scared because before when she was in that mood she asked if she could find someone to hurt her and I got really upset (before we figured she might be bi-polar) I couldn't understand why and she agreed not to do that. But it still worries me that she might considering she could just lie and I'd never find out unless I noticed marks on her.
I'm really desperate for help here and even if you don't know how to help maybe there's someone you could point me in the direction of? I'd really appreciate it. I'm so in love with this girl and I know she loves me to and she feels bad about upsetting me by asking me to hurt her. I just have no idea what to do when she says she needs it. I'm never gonna give up on her.
Bit of background info:
She's 17 and I'm 19.
I'm from UK she's from America.
Her parents are really horrible to her a lot and hardly let her have privacy, so they don't know about me and I'm not sure she's going to ever tell them. When she's old enough and I've finished Uni we plan on living together and that is freaking me out a little right now because what am I supposed to do when we're together and she asks me to hurt her?
Anyway thank you if you read all of this. I hope someone can help me out. :/
Basically I've been in a long distance relationship for almost a year now and I love my girlfriend so much. I seriously never thought I could ever feel this way about a person.
Anyway the thing is we both think she may be bi-polar because she pretty much suffers from every symptom, from mood swings to exhaustion to self doubt etc etc... it's only she doesn't want to tell anyone else about and only I know. Her parents are really horrible to her and I think she's scared they'll just call her a liar or won't care or something.
I've been helping her deal with it as much and as well as I can. I'm always there for her or I give her space when she needs it (although I actually suffer from depression, which is getting better, so it's caused a couple clashes in the past) and I try to be really patient for her.
My major problem is that she has the mood that she gets in which I've only seen about 4-5 times where she says she's really numb and she wants to be hurt (physically). She literally asked me yesterday if I could beat her up. Obviously I refused because I love her to bits and there is not a part of me that could do something like that to her. She keeps telling me she needs it though and I really don't know how to help her, especially considering I'm 4000 miles away so I wouldn't be able to do that for her yet even if I wanted to (WHICH I DON'T).
I'm scared because before when she was in that mood she asked if she could find someone to hurt her and I got really upset (before we figured she might be bi-polar) I couldn't understand why and she agreed not to do that. But it still worries me that she might considering she could just lie and I'd never find out unless I noticed marks on her.
I'm really desperate for help here and even if you don't know how to help maybe there's someone you could point me in the direction of? I'd really appreciate it. I'm so in love with this girl and I know she loves me to and she feels bad about upsetting me by asking me to hurt her. I just have no idea what to do when she says she needs it. I'm never gonna give up on her.
Bit of background info:
She's 17 and I'm 19.
I'm from UK she's from America.
Her parents are really horrible to her a lot and hardly let her have privacy, so they don't know about me and I'm not sure she's going to ever tell them. When she's old enough and I've finished Uni we plan on living together and that is freaking me out a little right now because what am I supposed to do when we're together and she asks me to hurt her?
Anyway thank you if you read all of this. I hope someone can help me out. :/
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