I'm not quite sure what it is but I'm just finding these things are compromising my productivity/efficiency/usefulness.
A part of me would like to act on it (the forveralone virgin part)-but the rest of me would rather just ignore the feelings, along with the feelings of wanting to be attractive/desirable, and get on with something else.
I find that although time with people/socialising/friendships in general make me happy, they are also often hurtful, and distracting, which is to say that I compromise my long-term life security (stable job etc.) in pursuit of short-term happiness. As far as the 'need' to lose virginity, that's just petty ego and pride.
This is why I don't like and struggle to get close to people IRL, and why I'm wondering whether my last relationship was a mistake.
However I'm also a bit unsure what the point is in my goals; I'm not sure what I want from life, or why, or whether there's any point. I'm just going to distract myself and see if things start making sense.
I'm aware this is conventionally a 'miserable' approach to take but I don't feel normal right now, I feel out of touch with my emotions and the people around me.
I wouldn't say I feel particualrly depressed, just sort of meh, like nothing strikes a chord. And again I'm aware this is probably boring, but again I don't really care.
What is this feeling called?
edit: Is there a troll who likes to rep my depressed posts? :S
A part of me would like to act on it (the forveralone virgin part)-but the rest of me would rather just ignore the feelings, along with the feelings of wanting to be attractive/desirable, and get on with something else.
I find that although time with people/socialising/friendships in general make me happy, they are also often hurtful, and distracting, which is to say that I compromise my long-term life security (stable job etc.) in pursuit of short-term happiness. As far as the 'need' to lose virginity, that's just petty ego and pride.
This is why I don't like and struggle to get close to people IRL, and why I'm wondering whether my last relationship was a mistake.
However I'm also a bit unsure what the point is in my goals; I'm not sure what I want from life, or why, or whether there's any point. I'm just going to distract myself and see if things start making sense.
I'm aware this is conventionally a 'miserable' approach to take but I don't feel normal right now, I feel out of touch with my emotions and the people around me.
I wouldn't say I feel particualrly depressed, just sort of meh, like nothing strikes a chord. And again I'm aware this is probably boring, but again I don't really care.
What is this feeling called?
edit: Is there a troll who likes to rep my depressed posts? :S
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