I never fancy guys - what is wrong with me?

i do have a sex drive and i do find men attractive, the idea of sex with men attractive... there are men i find attractive... but when it comes down to it i always manage to find a flaw which puts me off. at secondary school, i fancied guys long term, guys i had no chance with because i was shy and quiet and never spoke to them. i had a crush on the same 3 guys (in cycles with periods of not fancying them, sometimes fancying all 3 at same time) until i left school... and then a few other guys along the way between years 7-9. particularly this guy (one of the previously mentioned 3) i had had a crush on originally in year 7, then intermittantly throughout school until it came back STRONG in year 10 and stayed there. when we went to 6th form i started talking to him more in class and even went on a school residential trip for 1 week where we got on excellently (he said it was the most he had laughed ever)... after that things turned down a bit because i started being shy around him and backed off a bit and although we still talked a lot, we didn't have such an energy and spark. i never told him how i felt because i was obviosuly scared and he had casual sex with a few girls so h e obviously didn't feel the same. i'm on a gap year now and have moved on from all these crushes... but now i don't fancy ANYONE. i have met some really nice guys that like me, for example i met one guy and he was attractive and i talked to him a lot... but when he tried to kiss me i rejected himbut we were still talking/joking after.. but now if i bump into him it's awkward (not because of me, i am not shy/quiet anymore... it is him, he acts really nervous and on edge).. i didn't like HIM because he wasn't dominant enough... then there was another guy who is REALLY nice and i went home with him one night when we went out together and i think he wanted sex and i was kind of up for it but then when i go into the bed with him i realised i REALLY didn't fancy him (even though i did previously a little bit, not like when i've fancied people before) and it didn't happen... he was SUCH a lovely guy though.. things like this happen often but i find guys want to move fast and i think i need time to realise i fancy someone... but they always go in for the move before i have time to know what i want. i get quite a lot of attention from guys. i am a virgin and i don't know what to do. i just want to find a nice guy but i feel kind of emotionally blank right now and i hate it, i really want to find a guy i feel a spark for, like with the guy at 6th form... but it just doesn't happen.

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