My husband Michael and I have been together eight years and married for five. I am 29 and Michael is 32. We met in college and fell blissfully in love. He was my best friend, my soulmate, my everything. We fight like every couple does but I don't know what I would do without him. We have two beautiful twins, Martha and Ben who are four, who he is the most amazing father to. A few weeks ago, Michael went on a bachelor party to Vegas. In hindsight, yes it was probably a bad idea to agree for him to go there but he swore to me that he would as he put it "behave". They left on the Thursday night and came back Monday afternoon and I could tell something was not right. I asked him frequently if everything was okay and he told me it was but there was definitely something wrong. We went out for our date night at the weekend and he told me what had happened on the trip.
His friends, all of his single friends bar the one getting married, went to a casino, got drunk and took drugs. This was not a surprise to me, as Michael had some issues back when he was a teenager, which are mostly resolved now. What was a surprise was that they met up with a group of girls, young college girls and partied with them. He ended up taking one back to their room and had sex with her.
I just felt numb when he told me, I wasn't mad, I wasn't sad, I was just numb. All I wanted to do was to not know. I got up from my seat, got in the car and drove home. As soon as I opened the door, everything hit me, like my heart exploded. I sent the babysitter home early and just cuddled Martha and Ben. I tried so hard to stop myself from crying, but I couldn't. The kids were both so very sweet, Martha said " I hope you feel better Mommy cos it makes my heart sad when you cry." I got them both dressed and put them to bed and lay in my bed and sobbed. Michael came home shortly after and slept in the guest room, without talking to me.
Since then, I haven't known how to act around him, all I want is to not talk about it and Michael has apologized and apologized. I don't know what to do, I just want to forget about what happened! Of course I understand that is not realistic. I would really appreciate some advice, I can't handle this pain alone.
His friends, all of his single friends bar the one getting married, went to a casino, got drunk and took drugs. This was not a surprise to me, as Michael had some issues back when he was a teenager, which are mostly resolved now. What was a surprise was that they met up with a group of girls, young college girls and partied with them. He ended up taking one back to their room and had sex with her.
I just felt numb when he told me, I wasn't mad, I wasn't sad, I was just numb. All I wanted to do was to not know. I got up from my seat, got in the car and drove home. As soon as I opened the door, everything hit me, like my heart exploded. I sent the babysitter home early and just cuddled Martha and Ben. I tried so hard to stop myself from crying, but I couldn't. The kids were both so very sweet, Martha said " I hope you feel better Mommy cos it makes my heart sad when you cry." I got them both dressed and put them to bed and lay in my bed and sobbed. Michael came home shortly after and slept in the guest room, without talking to me.
Since then, I haven't known how to act around him, all I want is to not talk about it and Michael has apologized and apologized. I don't know what to do, I just want to forget about what happened! Of course I understand that is not realistic. I would really appreciate some advice, I can't handle this pain alone.
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