hey everyone,
I started uni in september and during a campus social at a bar at the start , i met this guy and we hit it off really well and then we kissed a lot during that night but that was it.
we saw eachother a lot as we live in the same halls and go to the same campus so we made small conversation everytime we bumped into eachother.
then a few weeks ago i received a facebook message from him just saying hey which was sent really early in the morning, which i replied to and it ended up being a long conversation about nothing. i then invited him/and friends to a party which my friends were throwing and gave him my number so he could text me if he was at the door or needed the address. he texted me later on that night (at the party) asking how the party was and just being nice making conversation as he was staying in that night.
and that's all i heard from him until a week later i bumped into him at another party and he asked if i wanted to go to a club with him and a few more people which i did. well on our way there he started holding my hand and we made out on the streets, embarrassingly. but yeah we were all over eachother at the club . after that we all decided to wander around town as we were still "buzzing" but he seemed distant which confused me. well after our little wander about we decided that the night was still young even though it was half five in the morning, so we went back to my flat and all had a little nos and chilled out. everyone else went and he stayed and we just spoke for a bit, spooning and cuddling and he went to sleep at mine. we woke up and he kissed me in the afternoon and said that he was gonna sleep in his room for a bit cause i took over the bed (aaaaaaagh still embarassed) and in the evening he texted me to thank me for letting him sleep in my bed and we just texted about how fun last night was etc)
i realised that he left his nos cracker in my room so i texted him about that. the night after he texted me quite late, like 3 in the morning just making conversation with me and then was asking if i wanted to drop his cracker off which i declined as i was with a friend in my flat. He then asked if i wanted to go outside with him for a cigarette which i also refused.
The next night i was at a flat party and his friends all seemed to know who i was, but he wasnt there as he went to get a take away. obviously with my luck he arrived when i was absolutely smashed and i did notice him keep staring as some other guy was flirting with me. he then came over and asked if he could get his nos cracker from my flat, which i said yes as i was getting tired and to be honest i wanted to be with him alone. we got to my flat and i just ended up getting on my bed as i was a mess and completely drunk. he then moved my laptop out of the way so i wouldnt break it and told me that i would ruin my dress if i slept in it. i then got up and asked him to zip it down which he did and then i kissd him and one thing got leading to another and we basically foreplayed. once i came to my senses (sobered up a bit) i realised what i was doing and told him that i didnt want to mess around anymore and that i'm only going to have sex with someone that means a bit more from now ( i messed about quite a lot first few months) he told me he didnt know what he wanted but that he respects me and he then tucked me in to bed and kissed me .
he texted me the next night just making general conversation which made me happy and also make me realise that i was actually infatuated with the guy. since ive beenat home and i texted him twice which hasn't led to any conversation
every text/message i hope/wish its from him but its really not and i am just clueless in what to do. i want him but i don't want to be this crazy person anymore, its driving me absolutely mental!
PLEASE HELP ME!
SHOULD I JUST IGNORE HIM / STOP TEXTING HIM AND ACT NORMAL AROUND HIM AT UNI?
or should i just go stick my head in an oven?
I started uni in september and during a campus social at a bar at the start , i met this guy and we hit it off really well and then we kissed a lot during that night but that was it.
we saw eachother a lot as we live in the same halls and go to the same campus so we made small conversation everytime we bumped into eachother.
then a few weeks ago i received a facebook message from him just saying hey which was sent really early in the morning, which i replied to and it ended up being a long conversation about nothing. i then invited him/and friends to a party which my friends were throwing and gave him my number so he could text me if he was at the door or needed the address. he texted me later on that night (at the party) asking how the party was and just being nice making conversation as he was staying in that night.
and that's all i heard from him until a week later i bumped into him at another party and he asked if i wanted to go to a club with him and a few more people which i did. well on our way there he started holding my hand and we made out on the streets, embarrassingly. but yeah we were all over eachother at the club . after that we all decided to wander around town as we were still "buzzing" but he seemed distant which confused me. well after our little wander about we decided that the night was still young even though it was half five in the morning, so we went back to my flat and all had a little nos and chilled out. everyone else went and he stayed and we just spoke for a bit, spooning and cuddling and he went to sleep at mine. we woke up and he kissed me in the afternoon and said that he was gonna sleep in his room for a bit cause i took over the bed (aaaaaaagh still embarassed) and in the evening he texted me to thank me for letting him sleep in my bed and we just texted about how fun last night was etc)
i realised that he left his nos cracker in my room so i texted him about that. the night after he texted me quite late, like 3 in the morning just making conversation with me and then was asking if i wanted to drop his cracker off which i declined as i was with a friend in my flat. He then asked if i wanted to go outside with him for a cigarette which i also refused.
The next night i was at a flat party and his friends all seemed to know who i was, but he wasnt there as he went to get a take away. obviously with my luck he arrived when i was absolutely smashed and i did notice him keep staring as some other guy was flirting with me. he then came over and asked if he could get his nos cracker from my flat, which i said yes as i was getting tired and to be honest i wanted to be with him alone. we got to my flat and i just ended up getting on my bed as i was a mess and completely drunk. he then moved my laptop out of the way so i wouldnt break it and told me that i would ruin my dress if i slept in it. i then got up and asked him to zip it down which he did and then i kissd him and one thing got leading to another and we basically foreplayed. once i came to my senses (sobered up a bit) i realised what i was doing and told him that i didnt want to mess around anymore and that i'm only going to have sex with someone that means a bit more from now ( i messed about quite a lot first few months) he told me he didnt know what he wanted but that he respects me and he then tucked me in to bed and kissed me .
he texted me the next night just making general conversation which made me happy and also make me realise that i was actually infatuated with the guy. since ive beenat home and i texted him twice which hasn't led to any conversation
every text/message i hope/wish its from him but its really not and i am just clueless in what to do. i want him but i don't want to be this crazy person anymore, its driving me absolutely mental!
PLEASE HELP ME!
SHOULD I JUST IGNORE HIM / STOP TEXTING HIM AND ACT NORMAL AROUND HIM AT UNI?
or should i just go stick my head in an oven?
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