my husband and i are separated (he is the WS in this case) and planning on divorce as soon as i have the money for it, AKA february. thanks tax refund!
i recently reconnected with one of my best friends from high school, someone i stopped talking to at my STBXH's request because he felt threatened. i hadn't seen him in 3 years and spoken to him for over 2 years.
and i have to say, it gave me a little insight and perspective into the blanket fog-like feelings that WS's supposedly feel during their affairs. not that what i am doing is having an affair being that i have no real relationship to my STBXH other than a legal one anymore, or that any type of cheating or affair is justified, but i feel like i understand a little bit better now.
i was already 95% out the door before reconnecting with my old friend, but i feel like talking to him the past few days really gave me the extra push i needed. and now i can't even look at my STBXH with anything but disgust. he just completely repulses me. perhaps that's partially how a WS feels during an affair?
maybe i just enjoy playing devil's advocate. it makes sense to me though.
i recently reconnected with one of my best friends from high school, someone i stopped talking to at my STBXH's request because he felt threatened. i hadn't seen him in 3 years and spoken to him for over 2 years.
and i have to say, it gave me a little insight and perspective into the blanket fog-like feelings that WS's supposedly feel during their affairs. not that what i am doing is having an affair being that i have no real relationship to my STBXH other than a legal one anymore, or that any type of cheating or affair is justified, but i feel like i understand a little bit better now.
i was already 95% out the door before reconnecting with my old friend, but i feel like talking to him the past few days really gave me the extra push i needed. and now i can't even look at my STBXH with anything but disgust. he just completely repulses me. perhaps that's partially how a WS feels during an affair?
maybe i just enjoy playing devil's advocate. it makes sense to me though.
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