| Recently my husband had a surgery to insert a Pacemaker...This came on just like that...Never any indication, it just happened...Five weeks before that surgery he had some pains in the chest area...The doctor found an echo and they did a stress test...To make a long story short within two months he had two ER visits and the surgery.... From what I have seen on this forum women are looking for help with ED...I believe some of us can be of assistance...Hopefully this thread will help women become aware of this and add their views in helping other women along this line... This is what I had done to my husband to help him...If I hadn't, he would probably be dead...Please add your thoughts...It could save a life... I am not sure when I first noticed my husband sexually slowing down.... Maybe slightly in our mid 50's, I started to take note that he didn't have the sexual staying power, but I ignored it.... He has always been a great stud, but as the 50's progressed this became more apparent...In all honesty, I only started giving him great oral around our later 50's...Before that it was more of a duty and not done with as much love and hunger as it would become over the years....Yet, if I had a few drinks I went wild...Again showing the inhibited woman in me...To me this shows one thing...That being we are too up tight and can't let the true harlot in us go.... I am not sure, but I believe this is part of my past and my Mother's preaching to me her hatred of the male penis...Whatever is was, I sure ended up making it a new and big part of this maturing woman. Back in our early 60's I noticed that I was not able to orgasm like I used to..... I also noticed that he would not stay down on me performing oral sex like he used to...Add to this that I was not the kind of a woman to open her big mouth and tell him this so I shut my mouth...Believe me this is not me now...I really let it all hang out...I knew he was having problems holding his erection so I, like many women who had not had their real orgasm yet, would often fake it...This can be a problem in a relationship when people fail to talk and as their partner's ejaculation point near will go with this to satisfy him...Looking back, this was stupid on my part as I should have fondled him and given him oral to help him out....Thinking about what I just I find myself wondering why do we women as we age, find it easier not to do these sexual things?...Is it still the inhibited woman that lives within our mind or are some of us just plain repulsed with performing this erotic act of lus t?...In hindsight, I wanted to be satisfied yet did not do the things to him that he needed.... It was my fault that soon he too was having erectile problems.... We were having sex, but it just was not as good as before.... It was a more hurried sex..... Not like now....At that time, he wasn't able to hold it for as long as we were used to...In hindsight, I guess this was the age when I should and could have helped, but was not aware of this at that time... Just plain stupid..... When he was 67 he had an appointment with our Internal Medicine doctor for a physical...Unlike now, I didn't go with him so I had no idea of what he was doing or talking to the doctor about....Later when he came home and I was sitting on the bed in our bedroom he went to the bathroom and came back out and handed me a piece of paper.... I looked at him and asked him what it was for...I didn't know that he had a problem and was really worried..I looked down as I could see it was a prescription for something, but was confused...He then told me it was for Viagra....In all honesty I was shocked...I couldn't believe what he was telling me...I looked at him and asked, why you?...You are OK...You don't need this...He argued with me and told me that he did.... He said he was having a hard time holding his erection and had talked to the doctor about it and had gotten some pills..... Take one-half to start and if that is not good enough take a whole one..... I was furious.... I took thi s as a personal attack on me..... I was not enough woman to make him hard..... I had failed him..... He comforted me and made me understand that this was part of aging and soon all was well.....Looking back at that time in my life and my reaction, I think all can understand why a sane person would think I was born in a barn... That afternoon we tried one..... It was awesome..... He was hard for a good two hours and we had sex all over the bedroom..... I felt terrible that I had said something, but that part was past..... So you see and know very well, I am a hot head and can be dumb as a brick..... Around December of that year I could feel me changing.... I had lost weight...Near 50 pounds...It was at that time that I knew that I was coming out.... My whole body told me that the sexual me was changing..... I understand this now more than anything, but this whole Forum thinks I am nuts so what the hell..... I was also seeing a difference in my husband..... Twice he had taken the pill and it hadn't worked..... We would get to the starting gate and the horse would not run..... Disappointing, but true..... You see these pills do not work all the time....... On the occasion I speak about I was horny...We had not had sex for eight days..... I was very, very hot and bothered.... I had ejaculated (even though I didn't realize this) for the first time in May and we really had hot sex when we did.... We had finished lunch and he was going downstairs to work on his hobby..... I was furious.... Here I am standing with love juice dripping down my leg and he is going downstairs.... I was annoyed and questioned him what is going on..... We have not had sex in eight days and you are going to go down and play with your toys..... I was mad and humiliated as I wanted it..... He replied he had forgotten and then he told me that the Viagra had been giving him such bad headaches...... He didn't have high blood pressure so this was not the case..... He went ahead and took his pill and we did have sex..... Again he got a headache.....Here I can say that thank God we stopped...With the heart problems that he was soon to see, this pill could have kil led him...This is the problem that many men have...Mine now has a Pacemaker and is like a stud... But, he could have been dead... That night the new sexual me from ejaculation and generally waking up in life was born...I decided it was time to try to take our life into my hands and help..... It was a big challenge, but when you love someone you will raise heaven and hell to make things right.... I also decided that I would not tell him what I was doing as this would put too much pressure on him and I didn't want to do this.... After losing all the weight and knowing how good I looked and how sexual I was, I had the confidence of a porn star and may I add acted like one too...Come to think of it I still do.......... Thinking back at this moment in my life, I don't know where I got the idea that I could do what I did..... Maybe the confidence in the woman that I am.... Maybe knowing how sexual I am with him or just maybe because I loved him more than my own life.... But I plotted..... The next evening I started my new venture..... He had always worn shorts to bed and a T shirt.....No longer would he wear them..... I wanted him naked or at least the shorts off... He now wore nothing... He had always wanted to do this.... I didn't....I was now banishing the the old me who had just discovered the hot woman in herself that was ready to rock and roll....When they came off the praise began about what a beautiful body he had...And he still does and did...He was my guy from years ago and I was his catch.......Even though I always stay up later than he does, I now became his adoring bride...I would rub his shoulders and be all that the woman should be to a man that she loves..... I not only found enjoyment but, a new pride in taking a limp penis and sucking it to perfection, yet I was always careful that I didn't give away my hand...I love flirting with him and taking him back to yesterday...Come to think of it, I still do...I brought him back to life because we became the two lovers of years ago...Time stood still and we met it...and may I add it is still is like this today..... The mornings were my magic time..... I had ordered three Victoria Secret shortie nighties... I never wore the panties with them.... Every two days I shaved clean as I know what my man loves.... I would get up to use the bathroom which has a separate area off the master bathroom and there I would add a good dose of rose glow to my nipples.... He would be in bed waiting for me and then I would go to him.... Since I had self lubricated and have been since I ejaculated I never needed to add this..In essence, I am always ready to go....Often I would go to the side of our king size bed stand in front of him and drop my nightie...You see age doesn't matter when you are in heat for your man...To me as well as him this was hot and sexy...Then I would go to him expecting nothing, but to be cuddled and we would lay together and kiss deeply and he would suck on my erect nipples sending me to heaven..... Most of the time I would be fingered deeply and often he would go down on me..... I w ould suck him off as we played our game of love...It became like dating time again...Heavy petting and noting expected...We were both in hog heaven......No stress...Just two people playing the game of love...This simple pleasure became my routine....It became part of our morning and night....And part of my plan... During the day I never stopped flirting with him.....I never will and when I think about it I think I always have...If anything I have become more possessive.... He is my man and I will do this until the day I die because I love him..... Our days were never the same anymore then they are now...Besides being busy, I often would come up behind him and caress his butt....I was also guilty of reaching into his pants and pull out his c**k.....This, too, was deliberate...I wanted him to know how much I loved this treasure and again it is something that I still do... I would look at him as I played with him and tell him what a man he was, all the while seeing the life come into this stud that I married.....I could see that he was starting to believe in himself.... He had become young with me helping him as I watched his change.... I can recall one day while sitting here at my computer in the guest room, and as he stood in front of me and with the wooden blinds open, pulled out his d *** and played with him and gave him oral until he moaned with the want of man in heat..... Dam, I was good.... Still am..... After a few weeks I brought another sexual action into the bedroom.... I had noticed each morning while we were side by side holding each other the new rise of an erect penis.... I was thrilled, but said nothing... Soon I noticed it more and more..... Then my next action.... I don't even know where it came from, but I took this stiffening blessed part of manhood and would spread open my lips of love while we were laying on our side and stick it inside me.... The first time this happened he was so surprised how hard he could get..... Soon I started grinding when we did this..... It became a sexual game with me telling him how hot and big he was...He really would take off when I would tell him that he was so big that he was reaching my cu*t..... Yes, I do use the word... I found that using the hottest and most erotic sexual words stirred him more so I gladly used them...Let's face it I am far from a prude...Come to think of it, soon I would not have had to use them as much, but I used them anyway....I figure this way if this helped taking a man of his age and turning him into a stud again they are worth their weight in gold.... It was during the early morning sessions that I rode him for the first time..... We had laid side by side and cuddled with his penis deep inside me as I made love to him....I noticed that he was big and he was hard..... Dare I take the big step and try and ride him?.... Was he confident enough in himself to take this step?..... He was and I talked him through it without his really noticing what I was doing as I mounted him..... Turned him slowly over to his back and sucked him one more time and got on him..... He was holding great and then I started the love making of a woman..... Using my nipples as bait, I would lean down and put them into his mouth and tease him and lick his lips and deep kiss him..... Riding him high and talking to him of what a stud he was..... And he was..... He was marvelous and I love him so.... During the first two weeks of my endeavor he took two pills..... After that never again....I still have four bottles in my drawer with eight blue pills in each of them...They are dated July, August, September and October of 2005...They all have different dates, but I have them....I think I feared this would work so just kept buying the pills...We have awesome insurance so I doubt they cost much to start.... I would say within six weeks the cowgirl began and then over the shoulders.... As his confidence grew, he grew.... Soon doggie followed and we were then one..... My husband is now 77 years old...I am 76.....He has gone through a rough time with his surgery yet he bounced back like nothing happened....This was less than four months ago...He is now the owner of a Pacemaker...This problem came out of nowhere...All of the sudden he had an echo in his heart...Two ER trips and 7 days in the hospital...Four one time and three the other..It makes me shudder to think of what Viagra could have done to him...He is now on three medications for life...They are: Flecainide, Atenolol and Warfarin and they don't bother him sexually...At first he feared how he would be sexually....This never worried me.....He lived and that was my prize....But again he surprised me...In fact I think I have a post on it somewhere here on my thread of this happening in the last three months...He was awesome...Last Friday he did me for 20 minutes straight...What he finds comfortable and erotic and possibly other older people will too, is making love to me at the end of t he Queen size bed here in my computer and Guest Room...We have found that the master bedroom king size bed is too tall...It is here where he has great leverage and can both pull on each nipple as well as lean down and suck one of them at the same time he is thrusting...Add to this fingering my clitoris and I live in hog heaven....He doesn't ejaculate that often, but he doesn't mind as he says that this way he can perform more...I hold him off to once a week as I think that is enough...I don't know if I would let him go more than this as even though he is allowed this liberty, I want him to take it easy..... The one thing I will add about this in helping your husband/partner, is to never let them know what you are trying to do.....Otherwise they may fight themselves and look at themselves as a failure...End of sermon:....Oh, and one more thing: Despite my writing and descriptive remarks about life, please look at me as Upper Class...I may write like a porn queen or street person, but oh what a wonderful life I have...All should be as blessed as I have been blessed...End of that sermon too:.... All this time I was changing him over he never knew what I was doing..... I never told him..... One day I was writing this up on my computer...... I was completing a blog for my site on what I had done in changing him back...All of the sudden I felt him in back of me..... He was reading what I had written..... He then realized what I had been trying to do and had done..... He pulled me out of the chair and kissed me..... Thinking back on what I just wrote, I guess that this is the story of our love.....IMO, about as good as it can get....My best to all... | |||
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