she drives me insane

Ok, so, I met this girl in a play April of this year. We were casted as the two leads, I was her lover in the play. From that point on, we became great friends. We would talk backstage forever and we just had a really great time. As this was going on, she was going through problems with her ex she just had broke up with. So fast forward a few months, my feelings developed for her. Well there was this asshole that tried to get with her but she rejected him hard - basically he just got between us for a while. So fast forward to the summer, we were casted in to Romeo and Juliet together. This is where things began to take off and we were constantly talking. Every single day, all day, all night. Many, many words were spoken. We both admitted we were friends with feelings. Note that another guy tried to get with her at this time but she rejected him too. So almost immediately after the play ended, I decided I needed to be with her. Well I made that decision when I met her. Anyway, we hung out alone for the first time ever. I took her to a restaurant, her cousins baseball game, showed her this thing I wrote for her, and back to my house for a short time. As she was leaving, we hugged, and that hug was special to both of us, thats when we knew. She even told me later on that she had the biggest grin after that while driving home. So we hang out a few days later on the 4th and went and saw fireworks. I held her hand for the first time, it was amazing. A few days later we went to the beach. Cuddled , it was great. Then a few more times we hung out. So she then got in contact with her ex. They hung out and thats when she got confused. She became a little more distant, things almost simultaneously changed. So she came over for a last time and we talked everything out. I told her i hated it when she ignored my texts, if she didnt want to talk, just tell me. Well, almost right after having a good time, she ignored for the next two days. I finally ended it. The rest of the summer was hell. Very slow and I couldnt get over her. She was all I thought about. I felt like I loved her. I continued to not speak to her until last weekend and she said that she missed me and wanted me back as her best friend again. I just wanted closure on the summer and find out what went wrong. She constantly avoided it. I finally got her to say that "summer was fun, but now its over" and i was satisfied with that because it was an honest answer. Since then, ive accepted friendship but things havent been the same and its been shaky. Theres a weird division between us, its like she tries to avoid being sweet or acknowledging any connection between us anymore. I dont feel close at all, she seems uniterested in even talking to me. Why is this if she wanted me back in her life? im in love with her and its painful. she just wants to move and be friends, but she doesnt even seem close to me anymore. what do? she drives me insane. I sit at home everynight and think about what shes doing when shes talking to me, everythings great. when shes not i hate everything oh yeah, were in highschool, im a sophomore and shes a senior

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