| I'm in a 2 year "relationship" with a girl I met on twitter, anyway, recently I've been running out of patience.. I mean when we first started talking it was fun, we were friends, then emotions got in the way, and our hearts connected, and well... for the first year in our "relationship" I never saw her (face to face / picture) and didn't hear her voice, till about 6 months later, she agreed to give me her number and I called her, and now after entering our second year in our "relationship" she still keeps saying she's not ready to see me, not even to send me a picture.. she said let's wait another year and i'll be ready. I just said "ok".. I'm not really sure I can wait another year to see her, I mean I've been setting up dates and stuff like that but I keep getting rejected and "I'm not ready".. I mean it's getting really hard for me to wait.. like sometimes I keep doubting myself I keep saying "how can I love someone without knowing how they lo ok like.." but that's not what bugs me as well..Recently I had to leave my country and head to Germany for a few weeks and get a checkup, anyway so she kept saying i'll miss you and stuff, anyway I spent 2 days in Germany and I just missed her voice soooo much I asked if I could skype with her(voice call only) she kept asking why? I told her I miss you, I miss your voice I want to hear your voice all she said was "oh okay" and she'd just change the subject.. it's getting annoying and I'm really pissed off, we just stick to bbm(blackberry messenger)... I'm getting sick of this.. Why wouldn't she want to see me, like it's been 2 years how can we be in love without knowing how each looks like (she knows how I look like, cause I had a picture of myself on twitter and blackberry messenger) and like why doesn't she want to skype with me.. And yeah I just remembered something, she asked me the day I reached Germany (about a week ago) she said "how come you stopped asking to see me? " I was gonna honestly say "cause I got bored of you not being ready" but all I said " I'm waiting for you to be ready"I honestly thought i'd cheat on her.. but I can't do that.. I really can't my heart aches everytime I think like that..... *sigh*Any advice would be appreciated, thank you :) |
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