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How normal or worrying was my parent's treatment of me?

I am an 19 year old male from the UK. My family are together, I am studying at a very good university and I have a boyfriend who loves me. However, my boyfriend has alerted me to the fact that I may not be as stable as I first thought. This has made me think about how the way I was raised, and if it has affected my mental health. So I wanted an outsider's perspective on how normal or disturbing the treatment I had as a child was.

I was always provided for. My dad was in general calm, dutiful and caring. However, he drank a lot when under pressure. And he did hit me on quite a few occasions. He threw batteries at me once, and once picked up a load of medals I'd won at soccer tournaments, and slung them around my face. I wasn't too badly hurt as I sheltered myself under my duvet. He also kicked me, swore at me and called me "B*stard" regularly. I remember my sister once had a friend over for a sleepover, and he said to my sister "you think you're so f8cking clever" right in front of her. This all happened when we were age 10 or younger. He also used to drive us to places while under the influence of alcohol.

MY mom also had issues with depression and prescription drugs. She attempted suicide twice and we once spent Christmas eve cleaning up her blood after she'd attempted to slash her wrists. She crashed her car car several times as she would also drive zonked on anti-depressants. She is a nurse and she also stole drugs from work. She also hit us on a few occasions.

I'm not making out I was an angel. I've always been a difficult kid. And I never thought about these issues because as I've got older, I've realized that everyone has issues and everyone has things that they are ashamed of doing. And I do feel that my family is fundamentally stable and loving; we are still together and we still support each other. But I want to know if what I experienced could have affected me in a strong way or not. I've never spoken about this to anyone outside of the family, so any insight would be helpful.




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