Ex (Dumper) in Mental Ward One Week Later

I wrote a really long post before, so I will iterate it in a much shorter post here, and the newer details. In our last week, C and I said we would make great efforts for us to work; we both agreed that we were so great when things were working. That week, I put in a big effort, and on his end all I saw was distance. 4 days after we decided to make changes, he told me that ever since that day he knew we couldn't be together, and that I should leave. True to the C that I knew, he wavered between frustration and being sweet when I asked for an explanation. It was a long night. I took a nap, and then awoke that evening to pack and leave. C kept promising a meeting with me. He showed up one night to give me my things. He was cold, tired, and upset; he just wanted to give me my things and leave. It was like that mostly this past week. We did have one 5 minute convo on the phone, where we spoke like old buds, but that was all, plus it made me feel worse. Just last night I found out that he had responded to a Craigslist personal ad 5 hours after the night he gave me my things and couldn't talk to me. I was in so much pain. How could the person who said that our sex was love, and unlike anything he ever experienced before, do this? How could he just want a f***? I will admit that the last few weeks of our relationship, I accused him of f***ing me and not making love to me. To which he denied--but knowing what I do now...I believe that is true. Anyhow, his mother called me for the first time, since C and I split, today. She said that C came to their house incoherent. They called the ambulance to take him to the psych ward. It was the first time out of many hospitalizations that he did not struggle; he went, easily. He has been in a psychosis since at least late last night. Up until late last night (late Saturday, before I knew of the psychosis and hospitalization) I had tried to reach him. I hadn't heard anything from him since Thursday when he canceled a meeting between us. I had a hunch this would happen. He and I met in a mental ward 9 months ago. I thought I could keep him safe and healthy. Before he met me in the hospital, he was doing coke, going to prostitutes, and his mother had a restraining order against him. We were clearly very co-dependent. He memorized my number the first time we were in the hospital; he was so scared to lose contact with me. So I know that he knows it now. We fell for each other immediately. Now I can't help but wonder if he thinks of me back in that place we met. He hasn't called me. I want him to be healthy. But it's not my place to do that. I also selfishly want him to honor the memory of relationship in some way.

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