Can't accept my sexuality...

Hi guys. :) Just a little bit of background first: I graduated from Uni last summer and am back living with my parents. I have got a job and am hopefully looking to move out and rent a room in London in a few months (as opposed to commuting every day). Living independently will give me my life back a bit, so things are looking good... But, I'm gay and I don't want to be. I want to have a wife and kids one day and be 'normal'. This attitude has stalled me, and gets me flying around in circles; one day I imagine hugging a future boyfriend and on another day imagining showing my a future girlfriend to my Mum and staying in the closet. This is something I should have got over as a teenager. I want to come out but I can't. I'm 23 and life is moving fast. No one knows I'm gay, I don't want to be gay yet at the same time I do; I need help... :(

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