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My Sexless Marriage

I've been married for four years to a great guy. Well accomplished, positive and a great dad to our four month old. It started about two years ago when I noticed that I was almost always the one initiating sex. Prior yo that, we had sex about once a week or more.

When I first confronted him about it, he told me I was making a big deal about nothing. I enjoy sex and I love having it to be honest so it did trouble me when we were having lesser and lesser of it. A few months later, things didn't get better and he blamed it on erectile dysfunction because of his smoking. However, all this time he has been watching porn at least twice a week.

Then when we tried to have a baby, I had to literally force him to **** me. Finally got preggos and the sex stopped. Apparently he wasn't into pregnant women.

Gave birth five months ago and still no sex. We completely don't speak about it and live as if it's normal to not have sex. There is one thing I know for sure though and that's that he is not physically attracted to me anymore and probably hasn't been in the last two years. Knowing that has killed any desire to want to have sex with him. However, I am pretty sure others might be turned on by me as I know I'm not grotesque looking. I just can't shake off the fact that I'm with someone who doesn't want to **** me and now I can't imagine making love to him either.

We have huge fights at times where he has threatened divorce and I have thought about it quite a few times too. Our marriage just seems awfully fake but I don't know if this is just a phase.

I used to be madly in love with him but right now, it just feels like I have a housemate who I'm close to.

The worst part is that even if he would actually consider having sex with me, I don't think I can go through it as I'm convinced he's faking the interest.

Help.

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