My wife and I have known each other for 14 years and have been married for 11. A few years into marriage I was diagnosed with severe depression and she has had to deal with that. Also, since before I knew her, I was already addicted to porn. A couple of years ago I finally told her about it and it tore her apart.
She told me how much it hurt her and that it feels like I cheated on her, and it makes her feel like she was such a sucker for all these years. She is a beautiful, kind, and smart woman, so I feel horrible for making her feel that way. In some ways I do not deserve her.
For the past year or so I have pretty much stopped watching porn. However, she is no longer comfortable spending time with me.
On one hand, I am grateful that she is even letting me stay as part of the family with her and our kids. On the other hand, I feel lonely because almost all of the time she prefers to spend time with the kids rather than me. She says she wants to protect herself from possibly more hurt, which makes sense, but I worry she will never get over it.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for in this forum. Maybe to hear if others have been in this situation, if there is any hope for me to be my wife's best friend again?
She told me how much it hurt her and that it feels like I cheated on her, and it makes her feel like she was such a sucker for all these years. She is a beautiful, kind, and smart woman, so I feel horrible for making her feel that way. In some ways I do not deserve her.
For the past year or so I have pretty much stopped watching porn. However, she is no longer comfortable spending time with me.
On one hand, I am grateful that she is even letting me stay as part of the family with her and our kids. On the other hand, I feel lonely because almost all of the time she prefers to spend time with the kids rather than me. She says she wants to protect herself from possibly more hurt, which makes sense, but I worry she will never get over it.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for in this forum. Maybe to hear if others have been in this situation, if there is any hope for me to be my wife's best friend again?
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