Is it over? thats the big question im asking myself. I just dont know if i can take another round of this.
Background.
her and i have been together since high school, over 15 years, married for almost 3 engaged for 3 before that or so, i'm being vague for the sake of anonymity.
I joined the military after high school, my only indiscretion was when i first got to base after all the training was done, alcohol and peer pressure, availability and lack of common sense. I took oral pleasure from someone. Resulting issue was the requirement of minor medication and that was it, clean and clear.
Over the course of a number of years I had come to talk with someone, and looking back on it now they took to me more than i took to them. This caused issues when she decided to send me pictures and messages after i got together with my now-wife.
We coped, overcame so i thought, went to counseling for couples.
So now to today... The wife became aware of some porn, no biggie, except for the last while i've been enjoying scenes and pictures of amature / pictures i can relate to, these happen to be of people with similar traits to me. Small belly, little hairy, reasonably average otherwise.
My issue is this, I love her, I love my kids, I love my house, my home, my life.
I abhor the almost regular sliding of mood and mentality. We have days, weeks and even months without a fight or issue then weeks and days of accusation and misery. I dont know how to adequately describe it.
Describing her, intellegent, caring, a good mother... she doesnt listen to me, and while i dont want an overly obedient wife, i would at the least like her to for of all things, listen when i tell her something and take it as the advice she asked for.
I dont know im just at a loss.
Background.
her and i have been together since high school, over 15 years, married for almost 3 engaged for 3 before that or so, i'm being vague for the sake of anonymity.
I joined the military after high school, my only indiscretion was when i first got to base after all the training was done, alcohol and peer pressure, availability and lack of common sense. I took oral pleasure from someone. Resulting issue was the requirement of minor medication and that was it, clean and clear.
Over the course of a number of years I had come to talk with someone, and looking back on it now they took to me more than i took to them. This caused issues when she decided to send me pictures and messages after i got together with my now-wife.
We coped, overcame so i thought, went to counseling for couples.
So now to today... The wife became aware of some porn, no biggie, except for the last while i've been enjoying scenes and pictures of amature / pictures i can relate to, these happen to be of people with similar traits to me. Small belly, little hairy, reasonably average otherwise.
My issue is this, I love her, I love my kids, I love my house, my home, my life.
I abhor the almost regular sliding of mood and mentality. We have days, weeks and even months without a fight or issue then weeks and days of accusation and misery. I dont know how to adequately describe it.
Describing her, intellegent, caring, a good mother... she doesnt listen to me, and while i dont want an overly obedient wife, i would at the least like her to for of all things, listen when i tell her something and take it as the advice she asked for.
I dont know im just at a loss.
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