So a bit of background. I have been at an all boys school from year 7 and I've just finished year 11. Therefore I have minimal contact with girls and it was only recently that I have acquired my first girlfriend.
My girlfriend is beautiful, smart and loyal and I love her very much.
However since we've been together I've deleted of blanked all female contacts on social media who message me because she doesn't want me talking to other girls. I'm a born again christian so I would never cheat on a girl because it goes against the bible. I've also stopped watching porn, tried to stop looking at other girls in public and many other things in order to stay loyal to her. Her last boyfriend cheated on her which I find absurd and abhorrent and it perplexes me as to why anyone would want to commit adultery on such a pulchritudinous girl.
However recently she asked if I think about other girls. I admitted to her that I do (celebrity crushes ect) and she burst into tears. I felt awful about it as I would never want to hurt her. I told her that it was involuntary and I and help it and I would never cheat on her. However she told me that I need to stop thinking about other girls. I want to make her happy but I find it impossible not to think of other girls. If I could stop thinking about other girls I would.
Is this realistically possible? If so how can I go about it?
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