My friend and I have been getting all kinds of friendly. We were both hammered once and we made out (she initiated it), afterwards we agreed it was a drunk thing and wasn't going anywhere, I said I thought something could happen between us, she said it could but it would be complicated and she didn't want to get involved with anything like that, I generally agreed, so whatever. At this point I didn't really care either way tbh, I was just testing the waters so I didn't press it.
But then the next week she ended up dragging me into her bed after a party and started coming on to me, she was way too drunk and basically I wasn't comfortable sleeping with her, it would have been taking advantage on a massive level. Woke up in the same bed the next day and she was all 'I can't believe what a great guy you are etc', we spoke about it and again came to a clumsy 'lets not go there' kind of decision.
Thing is, basically I really like her, I didn't think I did, I thought it was just a drunk mistake but actually I really really like her, also I'm certain she likes me, her body language has completely changed towards me, shes always sitting right up next to me, holding my arm when we're in a group etc. If I acted like she does with me around male friends they would think I was gay.
In a week she's going on holiday and a week after she gets back from that I'm going on holiday with her and some other friends, I kind of really just want to tell her something like 'I don't want to just be friends I want to be with you, I think you want the same, why don't we just see what happens', and I think there's a quite good chance she'd agree, but also I don't think she knows what she wants and this could be playing all my cards in one hand, I was thinking I would just wait till we're on holiday, but there is another guy in the picture who I know is interested in her, and I think if I don't tell her she might end up thinking that I actually do just only want to be friends...which I now realise I absolutely don't!
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