So basically, what it says in title. I have a habit of self destructing and have to admit last few years ain't been easy. I am literally became quiet over the years - mainly to do with bullying and it knocking me back, it was just easier for me to be quiet.. But I have came to a point in my life now that I keep loosing people over my insecurities or I am scared to loose them so I become clingy - which of course they get annoyed and fed up anyway :/. I wanna be confident, be able to hold conversations like I used to. But I dunno where to start?? I know I need to change and I want a new start, I wanna get rid of pointless friendships or people stringing me along or it always being on their terms but it's hard when I feel like I have nothing and letting to at same time? :/
Can anyone else relate to this and has experienced things like this before??
I am using app, which is why I ain't anon but thought might as well be brave and not be anyway..
They are many factors why I'm insecure and Destructive such as being cheated on at 16 and making out like I made whole thing up, my mother being an alcoholic and dying right infront of me at age of 9, my step dad then leaving 2 months later, my grandma then suffering from depression, my grandad then dying, my dad leaving when I was six wtc etc.
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