I've dated since I was about 14, and as you can imagine this resulted in a lot of juvenile relationships from which a lot of pain came from as a result.
It is good in a sense (speaking as a male) that I've done this since I was 14, I've gotten good at the art of seducing and I know what works and what doesn't. I lost my virginity when I was 14 so I've had an early experience and chance to get good, however there is a negative side to this I've also become paranoid, and extremely jealous when in a relationship.
The reason for this I'm not really quite sure, but all I know is logically I know it is irrational and in fact the jealousy and paranoia in fact destroy the relationship and drive the other person away, somewhat ironic haha.
I think I get paranoid because I'm used to dating a lot and i'm used to being cheated on, having a girl suddenly opt for another guy, move away; break up with me for a million different reasons; this isn't to say though that I haven't broken up with girls, it's been about an even split between the 9 girls i've dated, however the ones that really stuck and hurt were obviously the ones where I wanted the girl but she left me
You would think it happening over and over again you'd build a tolerance or resistance but in fact I think it only gets worse and worse the more it happens as the heart becomes fragile and easily breakable
I really need advice because at the moment I am seeing a girl and it is going well, however it is exam time.
Now we had a little argument because she was being distant during a phase of depression, we resolved it but we haven't really spent any nice time together for a while, about 2 weeks now, it's also early days...
Now it was her birthday the other day and she seems really happy and we made up and stuff, but when I asked her when she next wants to see me she said next friday, more than a week and a bit away, yet this weekend she's seeing her friends and stuff.
Now I'm cool with that and I know logically that I shouldn't have a problem with this, but i kind of do, i'm kind of sad that she would rather see them than see me, even for just a bit sooner, especially since we had an argument and stuff and haven't seen each other for ages.
I know this paranoia is ****ed, I know it is wrong and i would NEVER express these things, I just want to know how I can get over it. I know I'm going to see the photos and stuff on facebook and she has loads of guy mates I don';t know, some of whom she has dated and it will be so difficult seeing that ****.
What do I do to get over this problem I have? I am so jealous even when she just adds a guy on facebook. I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe it's insecurity, NB she has NO idea, and I acknowledge I am in the wrong and have a problem so that's a start? but yeah.... maybe I dated too much and got hurt too bad. I have loads of baggage.
Help me TSR!
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