He is my first relationship,crush, love, kiss, everything... We have been together for one year so far. He had only two/4 proper relationships before me and the last one was a girl that ended up forcing him to move out , abusing him(my boyfriend never told me much about it), cheating on him several times and leaving him for a girl...and I know yes she decided she was lesbian... This girl is really ugly, antisocial, smoker and drunk most of times. I am not trying to be mean or anything but after all I heard my boyfriend did for her and how he let her treat him the least I was expecting was some sort of sex bomb...
My problem is that I am jealous of the fact he had someone else and he did all these things for her even though he never loved her... I keep imagining how he used to be when he was with her and find it hard to understand that the guy I met and fell in love with is the same person...
I feel lost...
What is wrong with me?
I love him so much ... he says he hates her and still I find it so hard to accept his past... I was brought up in a family where the most valuable thing in relationship was having one n only... I t came to the point he doesn't want me to hear me mention her ever again. But all I think about is them and how they used to be and I get jealous of the most absurd things...for example of the fact that he took her to sexual health clinic when she needed to, or the fact that he remembers her full name and not mine (mine is a foreign one n being honest he isnt much clever), they spent xmas together and he used to walk 5 miles just to pick her up from work in the middle of the night... He did lots of things for me as well and probably if we compared mine are definetely better but I still get all these bad feelings... :(
My problem is that I am jealous of the fact he had someone else and he did all these things for her even though he never loved her... I keep imagining how he used to be when he was with her and find it hard to understand that the guy I met and fell in love with is the same person...
I feel lost...
What is wrong with me?I love him so much ... he says he hates her and still I find it so hard to accept his past... I was brought up in a family where the most valuable thing in relationship was having one n only... I t came to the point he doesn't want me to hear me mention her ever again. But all I think about is them and how they used to be and I get jealous of the most absurd things...for example of the fact that he took her to sexual health clinic when she needed to, or the fact that he remembers her full name and not mine (mine is a foreign one n being honest he isnt much clever), they spent xmas together and he used to walk 5 miles just to pick her up from work in the middle of the night... He did lots of things for me as well and probably if we compared mine are definetely better but I still get all these bad feelings... :(
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