Feel Alone in Marriage

First, I want to say that I am a Christian woman and I don't really believe in divorce, but the thought has crossed my mind lately. I have been married for 35 1/2 years. Now, that our children are grown and on their own, I feel this should be the best years of our lifes together. But, it seems things are getting worse and we are just growing apart and want different things. I want to go to the movies, dinner, week-end trips - I want to rekindle our romance. He wants his business, the deer lease and other things that do not include me. But the biggest thing is that his temper is getting worse and worse to just me. To anyone that would meet him, they would think that he is the nicest, kindest person (he gets compliments from his clients and friends all the time), but to me the words said are mean, cruel, degrading and just plain hurtful. If I say anything the wrong way or get the slightest bit angry, he just get madder and then the silent tr eatment starts. This can last for weeks and to be honest - it hurts. He does not know how to say "I'm sorry", so it never ends until I admit that I was wrong. I seem to be at fault for almost everything from a bad day at work, to needing to use the truck, to the laundry not being done, and the list goes on. I have even been the target of his anger when I had nothing to do with what made him mad. It was like he sought me out to take out his frustrations on; only the argument stops when he said what he wants to and walks out of the room. I don't get to say much, he will almost always walk out on me. To go after him is a BIG mistake, it just makes matters worse. I have been called every name you can dream up, most of the time he does this just to get me more angry or hurt me because he know those words that will trigger me to get more angry. I have/am just learning to be quiet around him or give him "his space", which leads to a great deal of loneliness on my part. I have prayed that God will change me and help me understand what I need to do. I have prayed for him because I know that only God can change a heart. But, nothing has happened - the silence still goes on.

Put the internet to work for you. via Personal Recipe 2629979