I made another post trying to work out what was going on with me so I won't go into it properly. Most people on the thread thought I was bisexual. Now I'd previous been pushed to try out tinder so today I reluctantly downloaded it. Initially I was going through guys but found myself doing left swipe after left swipe only right swiping two. I then thought "Ok, here's a chance to be certain I'll try adding girls. It was weird; like I swiped left to all of them but only because I wasn't sure what I thought of them. It's like I thought a couple of them were pretty (one I thought looked like Ruby Rose from Orange Is The New Black who I am attracted to) but it took me a minute to even think of them in a sexual way and even when I did, I was only really attracted to a couple.
The thing is, when I was younger, I really couldn't get my head round being gay so when I felt myself being attracted to a girl I'd be like "No you don't think of her like that" so maybe I'm in really deep denial or maybe that level of attraction was a phase (i.e. I'm still attracted to some women just not most). I just don't know anymore. I know most people will say "Don't be so desperate to label yourself" but I'm getting a bit sick of this. I thought to myself at a couple of points of coming out; I even hinted to my mum that I was bisexual and she seemed ok with it. But today I said to myself- ok tomorrow I'll tell her I'm a lesbian. That's obviously what I am. Yet still calling myself a lesbian just feels incorrect. I've never done anything with anyone. I don't know what the **** to think.
Put the internet to work for you.
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