With it being Father's Day and all recently, i've been thinking about my dad or rather lack of one. This guy i work with was telling us how his dad was forcing him to get a better job as he has a degree and it made me jealous as my own dad knows nothing about me. He was thrown out by my mum for being completely useless.
I've grown up (i'm now in my mid 20s) without him and its not without its scars. I lack direction in life and i'm scared to go after what i want most of the time. I still live at home but its something i'm working on changing. All my colleagues are moving on upwards and onwards in life whereas i feel stuck like a child.
He's very selfish and like a man-child with no friends or a life. He has not seen any of his family members for almost 15 years including his mother. My biggest fear ie ending up like him. I would honestly commit suicide if i did.
Anyway I'm really envious of people who had their dads around when they growing up. In fact every one of my guy friends who did have turned out to be pretty well rounded adults.
I dunno what Im hoping to achieve with this, I just wanted to rant.
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