My boyfriend has two good friends from uni, who are also a couple. They've all been friends for a few years, and I first met them almost 3 years ago. However, I didn't really see a lot of them at all (about 2 or 3 times a year if that) until we moved closer to them.
I should mention that I'm the only English one among them, and I now live in their country. They all speak great English, but when we're together we always speak in their language. I am advanced but not fluent in it, but the problem is that I have problems like stuttering and I get nervous speaking the language, and thus I'm not very confident in it, though I try my best.
The girl was so mean about me (behind my back) when I first met my boyfriend, but then I spent an evening with them and they seemed friendly enough. However, until we moved here, she had ignored me on facebook twice, and we never went out as a foursome, even though we didn't even live far before. I always proposed stuff like that to my boyfriend, but it just never happens.
Anyway, now we live so close, I've got to know them a little more, and they've been friendly enough to my face. However, I feel like they're just being like that because I am dating their friend and because we're living here now.
I don't feel like I'm a part of their group. Especially since it's harder for me in the language, and I don't have the ability to make the same jokes etc. as I would in English, but I'm trying.
Those 3 always text each other to hang out and the girl texts my boyfriend but never me. When we had a bank holiday, I made the effort to text her, and I even offered to help her with English generally, and I mean she invited me, but I think it was only because I texted her and she felt bad.
They say behind my back that I'm shy too, which really gets on my nerves. Sometimes they just all make random jokes together and don't have much to say to me. I just sit there like a nodding dog.
I just feel like an outsider, but I am trying. Does anyone have any advice about this? What should I do? Thanks
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