I spent 18 months with a girl that I was deeply in love with, for us to realise near the end of our relationship that we may be incompatible. Whilst this was a background concern, we both tried to make things work.
She started university last year, and I found out that in the first week, she'd slept with someone else. This devastated me beyond belief; this girl was my world and I couldn't believe she'd get with someone else, especially so haphazardly, whilst we were still trying to work things out. I exploded, and said things that I've since come to regret.
Since then, she continued to see and sleep with said person for a number of months on a casual basis. I struggled immensely with this but tried my best to be there for her. She's a very fragile, emotional person and I still loved her very much. The person she was with treated her awfully, and took no notice of her emotional needs, which made it difficult for me to 'leave' as such.
I tried to be there for her but it became obvious that her mind was elsewhere. Ultimately this got too much to handle, and I tried on numerous occasions to remove her from my life. Initially this didn't last very long, and I kept relenting.
It's now been over a month, and I've cut all forms of contact with her. I didn't inform her of what I was doing this time - the guilt would be overwhelming, and it's what stopped me from removing her from my life before. I feel that this is the right thing for me, and that I'm better off without her in my life. However, I do still care for her wellbeing, and I know that she's going to be struggling without me there.
In the past week she's tried to contact me twice, which I've ignored. I feel that she showed no regard for me or my wellbeing when she decided to sleep with someone else, so in turn I should show no regard for her. I hate to doubt myself now, but, am I doing the right thing? Any advice would be appreciated.
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