I've had a friend for about 3 years now who I clicked with instantly. We share common politics, ambitions, hobbies and interests. We are both 18 and at different universities.
When we were at school, she met a guy who she started seeing in the year below us. He's an alright guy but he seems quite mentally immature and incapable (he wants to be a Doctor like both his parents but scraped CCC at AS...).
Anyway, they're still seeing eachother but we're definitely best friends and tell eachother everything. We spend so much time together just doing random things. For example, the other night we went to a few bars and then sat and had Mcdonalds in the car park at 11:00 at night. Tomorrow we plan on going on my parent's canal boat before going out shopping for a new Barbour jacket.
Her parents prefer me to her current boyfriend - her father asks why she can't be with me and wants me to go on yacht trips with him and her, lol. and her mother tells me she makes more of an effort for me that she does her boyfriend!
The sad part is, we were talking about some stuff the other night over a drink at the pub and she said that she thinks she wants to have a family with this guy in the end. :( It really broke my heart and I went a bit awkward and she thought it was because I didn't have someone of my own. I felt like telling her it was because I wanted to be that guy. I'm not sure if actually does love him though - she told me in the beginning it was just because it "made her feel wanted".
I've come to realise that this girl is actually the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. She's the girl that I want to have a family with. She's the girl that love with every ounce of my being. And I just don't know what to do about it.
I don't want her to do something silly and accept a marriage proposal or get pregnant or something like that because she thinks I'm not interested in here. We have so much chemistry together and I'm thinking of letting it all out when we're on the canal boat alone together tomorrow.
Any help or advice, please?
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