I want to have the life a socialite being able to have lots of group of friends not just for the sake of having friends but for the fun life experience of being able to get my self out there discover who I am and understand people more and to of course have a fantastic social life
But the thing is I'm an introvert .
And although I crave this and get happy when around people I kinda just withdraw myself from people after short amounts of time . Either because I lack the energy to socialise , I feel uncomfortable around the new people I'm with or I get bored if the long term friends i have
I can genuinely say I have only three friends I connect with but the thing is I feel lonely because it's the same people and although I cherish them I get bored it doesn't matter if we do new things together I just genuinely enjoy meeting people but I suck with getting on with new people some might say I'm a bit socially awkward or have a slight social anxiety when it comes to socialising
So I'm stuck in between the point of wanting to meet people and when I do either through uni work or any where I'm too uncomfortable to be myself and build a connection with them
It makes me feel lonely
And I really envy those that go out every other day with lots of friends and have a different person to hang with every day
Any advice I know it sounds odd but I really struggled to write this as I couldn't find a way to describe my situation
im not sure how to fix this feeling s I'm not sure what i want and why i am this way
can anyone relate?
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