I went on omegle, video chat, under the tag "gay", and pasted this message onto everyone I came across ...
"hey, sorry to rub disgust on your screen but I have reallly low self-esteem and poor self-image (unsurprisingly), and so I decided that showing my face to strangers on the internet could possibly help me overcome the limitations of my foul appearance and allow me to overcome my issues. You don't have to reply, but please, no hate :] thankyou! :P"
anyway, most people left as soon as they saw my face, but one stayed. He was also kind of unconfident, he was 17, and he gave me a lot of compliments. He was really sweet and kind, but inevitably it came to flirting and it got a bit sexual, anyway it basically developed into us showing each other body parts and then we were fully masturbating, and I got on all fours and shown him every part of me. It was the first time I've ever felt slightly comfortable on camera, and for seem reason he was turned on by my body and didn't mind my face either (which is really weird :s). So yeah, we finished and I gave him my email, but now I feel weird.
I shown him my entire naked body
and my face.
and he liked it :s
so either a)he was genuinely attracted to me
or b) he pretended to be attracted to me, sweet-talked me and got me into dirty positions so he could record it. I'd be easy to do that to due to my poor self-confidence and desperation.
Either way, what he did was weird because I'm absolutely repulsive so I don't get how he'd be able to jerk off to me.
But he shown me a photo of him when he was younger, and when he emailed me just I searched his name in google and found his twitter account, last active 4 years ago with a similar picture. So that gives me some confidence, but he could still have been expoiting me.
What I'm most concerned about though is that fact that he probably is real, and yet he found me attractive. So he's probably got something wrong with him :s
But I enjoyed it at the time, and now I feel so ashamed and foolish :c
Put the internet to work for you.
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