I feel like a ghost, a voiceless faceless creature. I am standing in place while the world moves by me at hyper-speed.
I was going to go to school this year but now I am not because my daughter wants to finish her last year with her friends from junior high and I don't want to take her from them because I don't want to be cruel. I know what it is like to be alone wanting inside the group because I was always alone.
I read her online journal and I realized that she is depressed and even has considered suicide. I am ruining my baby I feel like the worst possible parent in the world.
She keeps telling me that I never listen to her because that is what my husband keeps telling her. When she talks to him is its something he doesn't like he tells her not to be stupid or not to copy my cousin Haley whom she idolized at one point.
Maybe I don't listen because I am never here, I am always at work and was at school.
My 6 year old son will hit and pinch her and if my husband catches her retaliating he gives her trouble but not the six year old. I realize that however unfortunate because I work so much and she basically runs my house raises my son that she should be allowed to protect herself or retaliate in some form. My husband disagrees, he will punish her if she retaliates after the 6 year old has bitten her so hard he broke skin.
I just feel so defeated right now
I was going to go to school this year but now I am not because my daughter wants to finish her last year with her friends from junior high and I don't want to take her from them because I don't want to be cruel. I know what it is like to be alone wanting inside the group because I was always alone.
I read her online journal and I realized that she is depressed and even has considered suicide. I am ruining my baby I feel like the worst possible parent in the world.
She keeps telling me that I never listen to her because that is what my husband keeps telling her. When she talks to him is its something he doesn't like he tells her not to be stupid or not to copy my cousin Haley whom she idolized at one point.
Maybe I don't listen because I am never here, I am always at work and was at school.
My 6 year old son will hit and pinch her and if my husband catches her retaliating he gives her trouble but not the six year old. I realize that however unfortunate because I work so much and she basically runs my house raises my son that she should be allowed to protect herself or retaliate in some form. My husband disagrees, he will punish her if she retaliates after the 6 year old has bitten her so hard he broke skin.
I just feel so defeated right now
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