Ok so here is my situation...my husband and I got married after almost 4 months of knowing each other. At that time I was extremely head over heals for him. He was living here in Canada on a work permit for 6 months. I was well aware of this from when I first met him.
After three months of dating...we got a bit more serious and I was falling in love with him. I really saw us being together forever and I couldn't imagine seeing myself with anyone else.
At this point I started thinking about him having to leave and going back home. And back home was in Europe. So it wasn't a quick flight to go see him whenever I wanted.
It came to the point where I thought ok it's either we end this relationship now because the more time we spend together the harder it will be for him to leave or we get married.
Now before everyone jumps to conclusions I want to make this very clear it was Me who brought up the idea of marriage to him. Nor did he ever once ask me.
We got married one month later. I moved in with him and our life as newlyweds began.
We fought all the the time and we both were extremely miserable.
But everyone told us to just stick it out and that the first year is always hard. So that's what we did. A year and a half later we decided to have the big European wedding we never had. His parents came and stayed with us in our new home before the wedding. This was my first time meeting them and they did not speak English. You can imagine how fun that was.
Now we are almost two years married and I am not completely happy. And he has told me the same as we'll in many occasions.
I think back and wish we had the chance to date longer and really got to know one another. I wish we didn't rush into marriage.
We are two completely different people. We don't like doing any of the same things together. I always compromise for him on things he may like doing and I don't but he never does the same in return.
I work in an extremely stressful fast passed work environment in the health care field. I work all different shifts and 6-7 days a week. When I come home he still expects me to have a hot homemade dinner on the table, house cleaned, laundry done, his lunch made for work each day, etc. He does not lift a finger in our home because he believes it is the women's job. This is where majority of our fights come form.
I was not raised this way so I see things differently.
On weekends he wants to sit in the home and stay on his computer. He never wants to go out.
He yells at me in public and tells me what to do...so I have stopped going out with him.
I've tried addressing these problems many times...he agrees at the time but never changes his ways.
I love him but I am not in love with him.
He usually ignores me and I feel only comes to me when he wants...u know......
I am no longer sexually attracted him.
He is very selfish and only thinks about him..he never includes me. He has no motivation in life to do better...no goals.
I don't see myself having kids with him. I even had a really hard time with even taking his last name.
I know all these feelings are not right. And I'm sure you should not be feeling like this.
We are both 25 and I feel like it maybe better to get out now before kids and before wasting more unhappy time together.
I think the one reason why I keep telling myself to stay is because you always believe and hope that maybe thighs could change. also I have the type of European parents who do not believe in divorce and in the past I tried telling them that I was not happy in my marriage they told me to not embarrasses them because of the big wedding we had.
I'm confused, stuck and need help!!!
After three months of dating...we got a bit more serious and I was falling in love with him. I really saw us being together forever and I couldn't imagine seeing myself with anyone else.
At this point I started thinking about him having to leave and going back home. And back home was in Europe. So it wasn't a quick flight to go see him whenever I wanted.
It came to the point where I thought ok it's either we end this relationship now because the more time we spend together the harder it will be for him to leave or we get married.
Now before everyone jumps to conclusions I want to make this very clear it was Me who brought up the idea of marriage to him. Nor did he ever once ask me.
We got married one month later. I moved in with him and our life as newlyweds began.
We fought all the the time and we both were extremely miserable.
But everyone told us to just stick it out and that the first year is always hard. So that's what we did. A year and a half later we decided to have the big European wedding we never had. His parents came and stayed with us in our new home before the wedding. This was my first time meeting them and they did not speak English. You can imagine how fun that was.
Now we are almost two years married and I am not completely happy. And he has told me the same as we'll in many occasions.
I think back and wish we had the chance to date longer and really got to know one another. I wish we didn't rush into marriage.
We are two completely different people. We don't like doing any of the same things together. I always compromise for him on things he may like doing and I don't but he never does the same in return.
I work in an extremely stressful fast passed work environment in the health care field. I work all different shifts and 6-7 days a week. When I come home he still expects me to have a hot homemade dinner on the table, house cleaned, laundry done, his lunch made for work each day, etc. He does not lift a finger in our home because he believes it is the women's job. This is where majority of our fights come form.
I was not raised this way so I see things differently.
On weekends he wants to sit in the home and stay on his computer. He never wants to go out.
He yells at me in public and tells me what to do...so I have stopped going out with him.
I've tried addressing these problems many times...he agrees at the time but never changes his ways.
I love him but I am not in love with him.
He usually ignores me and I feel only comes to me when he wants...u know......
I am no longer sexually attracted him.
He is very selfish and only thinks about him..he never includes me. He has no motivation in life to do better...no goals.
I don't see myself having kids with him. I even had a really hard time with even taking his last name.
I know all these feelings are not right. And I'm sure you should not be feeling like this.
We are both 25 and I feel like it maybe better to get out now before kids and before wasting more unhappy time together.
I think the one reason why I keep telling myself to stay is because you always believe and hope that maybe thighs could change. also I have the type of European parents who do not believe in divorce and in the past I tried telling them that I was not happy in my marriage they told me to not embarrasses them because of the big wedding we had.
I'm confused, stuck and need help!!!
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