| Hello.... I apologise in advance as this is quite long..... So basically a few days ago me and my boyfriend broke up.... It was a mutual decision however it was him who told me it wasn't working in which I agreed. So we had been going out for a year and a half, we lived about an hour away from each other so saw each other normally every weekend. At first it was amazing, I had never felt so special in my life. He was the best guy I had ever met, he was so nice, confident, always trying his best to make me happy, always doing and saying nice things to me and I did all the same for him. It was the most perfect relationship. After a while he started to become more and more comfortable in the relationship, which was to be expected. How ever he stopped making effort for me ( and I don't mean in terms of buying presents etc). He made less effort to speak, stopped saying nice things to me. This hurt me and I wondered why, I blamed myself and we started to argue about small things. I started to become insecure that his feelings were changing.... I believe this pushed him away. We carried on for around 8 more months. I tried so hard for him, constantly made an effort and tried to be the best girlfriend I possibly could, but it just wasn't enough. I was unhappy but I just couldn't bring myself to break up, I thought maybe things would just go back to normal, which they didn't. There were a few times when I needed him and he just wasn't there for me, that really hurt too and made me feel like I wasn't worth a bit of extra care and love when I was going through a tough time. Eventually he decided to end things a couple of days ago. He said he knew he wasn't making me happy anymore and that he felt he had tried but that I deserved more. He said he knows he will regret the decision but at this moment in our lives it wasn't working. He was never a very emotional person, he was more likes robot but I still loved him and loved hanging out. I'm really struggling to come to terms with the fact that he's gone:( I can't help but blame myself for this. It's so weird talking to someone everyday for the last year and a half to nothing at all. All I can think about is the good times we had together. I feel like I'm blocking out all the reasons why I know it wasn't working and only focusing on the good which is making it hurt even more. He's a nice guy who has a fun job in which he is constantly meeting students so I know he will find someone else in no time. My family and friends are being really supportive but there's only so much they can do. I have to make myself feel better but I just don't know how.... I can't concentrate on anything..... I know that he is already getting on with his life and that he has probably already forgotten about me..... Can anyone please help or share ways in which they have gotten over a break up? | |||
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