| This girl came to me last summer and the moment I saw her, I was obsessed. She's 30, I'm 40. After 3 weeks of circling round each other I went for it and we have been totally inseperable since. But now I'm torn right down the middle and here's why. We have a powerful sexual chemistry and it's increasing. Sex is frequent, uninhibited, naturally experimental, freaky but always very loving, satisfying and also getting even better. She's tactile, sensuous, soft, horny. Right up my street. A total woman and she dotes on me. We laugh about all sorts of silly stuff, have the same opinion on religion and politics. An unbelievably similar outlook on life. She adores my daughter to a previous relationship and wants a family with me. I'm down with that. However, she's a psycho. Something dark I can't put my finger on. She's prone to temper tantrums and rocks in the feotal position shortly after. She suffered with low self-esteem, had counselling and medication for depression in the past. She isn't proud of her dad who was never emotionally or physically avaliable and her mum is great but not particularly cuddly or sympathetic. I'm hard enough for that. She's also dangerous. She's been impulsive, knows how to seduce and has used men for sex and validation in the past. Unfortunately, she wasn't the only one being used. She's got a colorful sexual history (deal breaker history for most men), which she tried hard to hide but I knew. I refused to back down and she came clean. But the weeks of lies and deciept drove my imagination, anger, anxiety and eventually to a complete breakdown of trust. Now I don't believe a word she says and I'm a jealous psychopath. Not sure how I am with that. But I was right to push her. It highlighted some very different attitudes on very important things. Her ability to have sex without an emotional connection is a worry. As is her multiple cheating albeit with someone who didn't seem to care. There is more but I won't go into it and maybe a load more I don't know about. Getting not OK with that. But also, she sought to keep in contact with male friends. I cut off ties with all other women when I entered into a relationship with her. Except for my daughters mum of course. Any contact with her she absolutely can't handle. She went all out to control how long I spoke to her, how many times we texted, hated phone calls from her. I understand why although it was minimal. It was quite amusing actually until the foetal position. Then I found out one of her male friends she so adamantly refused to leave in the past, turned out to be an ex-FWB and she'd met up with him since we got together. The hypocricy was too much and I told her to leave. I was not at all in to that. But basically, I'm hooked on this woman. She does stuff to me I can't explain. But my gut is telling me I'm in for a rough ride in about equal measure. She says she's had a complete turnaround and realised she's messed up and grown up a lot. I don't know. Anyone had similar? What happened in the end? | |||
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