| So last night I was out with a group of friends and a few friends from work (part-time job over summer). Anyways we all drank quite a lot, out late etc. One of my female work mates who I've known for about a month now got particularly drunk to the point where we decided it best to take her home. I volunteered to take her back as I knew where her house was, and it was apparent no one else wanted to leave that early. So anyways we set off back home (I was really drunk too, but I could still walk straight unlike her) which was about a 30 minute walk. About 10 minutes in she just suddenly stopped and grabbed hold of me, and started to kiss me which really took me a back. Now the thing is earlier in the night she'd mentioned she had a boyfriend... So when she kissed me it did take me a bit to process the "what the hell" to "oh this is good" to "oh damn she has a boyfriend". I immediately stopped though when I realised and I told her, but I don't think she really understood, she just called me a dick and started to run off. I caught up with her and everything and... well to cut a long story short, a walk home with arguing, saving her from getting run over etc resulted in us making out again later on the walk back... I was really drunk and I have had a crush on her for a while :/ (I didn't know she had a bf until last night). Now I know I'm an absolute dick.. I've woken up today feeling terrible about it all. The thing is this is genuinely uncharacteristic of me; it was definitely the alcohol that turned off the ethical bit of my brain. I would never do that to someone because I'd never like it done to me (funnily enough thats something I said to make her stop her advances). So yeah, before you just come here to slate me, I already know I've made a huge mistake. Now my only saving grace is she wanted me to sleep with her, but I really wasn't having any of that (obviously my brain still has some sense when drunk). But yeah, thats the background, and this is the dilemma that I really need help with. I've woken up this morning and we've added each other on facebook. Apparently she's been with her boyfriend for 2 years now (I checked praying that I'd misheard her earlier in the night or something). And I started speaking to her this morning, making sure she was ok etc. Her flatmate "told her" I took her home so she thanked me for that and everything. But now she's saying she can't remember the walk back (I was trying to edge onto the conversation about it) . Now... I know alcohol genuinely stops the chemicals needed to make memories (or something like that), but I don't believe she could have blanked the whole way home. I mean... she was pretty drunk, but who knows. So yeah, my question is, what do I do now? Do I say "We need to talk about last night etc" and explain what happened, or do I just forget about it? or...? I don't know whether her saying she can't remember is just a cop-out or genuine though. I really don't know. I'm incredibly torn up about this and wish it hadn't happened at all, but a mistakes a mistake and I can't change it now. :/ | |||
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