LTR ended, heartbroken

Hello all, First time posting. I've read the sticky's, about this and have been kind of mindlessly wandering looking for articles on this topic as I'm basically overwhelmed. I don't know what else can be said about the subject, but maybe posting a thread about it will make me feel better, so here goes. I was in a LTR with my girlfriend going on 13 years this January. Its a long time, and why we weren't married is probably due to a couple of unexpected turns in our life (family emergencies on both sides, family members passing unexpectedly, etc) and we kept putting it on the backburner, but we both discussed this and were making plans to seal the deal. We recently split about a week and half ago. With all of the history we had, I don't think I could properly explain our situation, so I'll just leave it as there were some things she wanted me to change, which I did. I think that led to resentment on my end, so I was probably snapping at her unnecessarily. She would give a little, which I'd assume led to some resentment on her end. Back and forth over time and it just got worse. I don't think we will work things out and honestly, really don't know how I'm going to get through this. I know, sounds sappy, cry me a river, or whatever, but I can't help it. I'm heartbroken. Can't stop thinking of her. Every god damn thing reminds me of her, literally. First couple of days, I thought it was bad, but it's just getting worse. I'm in a rough place I guess. never really felt like this. We moved in together when we were young, and life with her is all I really know. I guess the hardest things are the little things. Waking up and seeing her, looking forward to talking to her about our days when I got home. I moved a few years back for her to be closer to her family and left all of my friends and family, so people to talk to are limited. Maybe that's making it worse, maybe that's why I'm posting a thread about it... I don't know. Pain is pretty unbearable at this point. Advise would be appreciated.

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