Is there something more or am I just crazy?

I apologize for the length ahead of time. Lets just start from the beginning so you can get a better understanding of the situation. I've known this guy Ryan for about 2 years. We first met because my boyfriend at the time, James, was best friends with him and his girlfriend at the time, Mariah. The night before me and James broke up we were hanging out with them and things got really weird that night. Things were tense between me and James, so he and Mariah went outside to talk leaving me and Ryan alone. We were relatively good friends, but we were both the awkward type and had never really spoken to each other without the other two present. It actually wasn't too terribly awkward, it turned out we had a lot in common. We talked about all sorts of things and things sorta just clicked between us. The next day, me and James broke up and he went to go live with Ryan and Mariah. And I lost contact with all of them. Not long after that they broke up after being together for 8 years and Mariah and James started dating. That was almost a year ago. In February I decided to hit Ryan up on Facebook to see how he wa s doing and after that we just continued to talk. It was all fun and flirty in the beginning. We texted everyday, exchanged "sexy" pictures, and always joked about sex. It was more than just sexual though, in the time that we have been talking we have become best friends. There was an obvious chemistry between us, but it was said from the beginning that neither of us were looking for anything serious at the time because we had both just gotten out of long relationships. We first time we hung out just me and him we almost had sex and probably would have if we didn't have an issue with the alcohol. That was fine, we still enjoyed the rest of the night. We talked for a little bit about what had happened, and somehow the conversation turned into how we would have beautiful babies if that were to happen. After that we cuddled when we finally went to bed. The next day when we woke up we went to lunch and when we got back to my house we almost had sex again after a game of strip po ker but didn't because we had no condom. That was still okay, we hung out for the rest of the day, but he was really touchy. Not in a perverted way, but like we were sitting on my bed and he kept rubbing my legs and arms and putting my legs on his legs, etc. Before he left that night we had a really long drawn out hug and then he left. A few days later I texted him and told him that I liked him, but he had nothing to worry about because I knew he wasn't ready for a relationship I just thought he should know. He was cool about it, he just told me that he thinks we are better off as friends and he wanted to ho around since he never got the chance to do so before and what happened would probably never happen again because he didn't want to ruin our friendship and he felt kinda weird afterward. We ended up hanging out that same day because he just so happened to be in town (he lives 3 away btw) and everything was fine. We went to lunch and then visited with his mom for a little bit then he left. We still talked a little bit after that, but not like we used to and not everyday. That was all about 3 months ago. Here lately we've been talking everyday again, we're not really flirty anymore, but he does tease me a lot. The other day he was telling me that he was trying to figure out if he was ready for a relationship again, and he asked me if he could talk to me about it without me getting upset because we have a little chemistry. I told him he could even though hearing him talk about his feelings about someone else hurt pretty bad. He told me that he has feelings for two different girls, neither which is me, but that was okay because I wanted to be there for my friend. We haven't really talked about it since then, so I'm not sure how he's doing with that situation, and I'm kinda scared to ask in fear of getting my feelings hurt about it again. Even after all the shit we have been through and what he has told me, I still can't help but think there is s omething more between us. Do you think there is a possibility? Should I talk to him about it? Or should I just drop it and forget about my feelings for him?

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