I'm feeling 'empty'

There seems to be an influx of people posting about how "lonely" and "bored" they are; this might be due to the high percentage of pollen in the air or people's new found free time which is bringing to light the fact that their lives are pretty mundane. Unfortunately I am one also of them but then again, I imagine every regular TSR user is to a certain extent. Being confided within a university campus makes it easier to constantly interact and socialise with university students. But once it hits the summer period and your housing contract expires, you are forced to leave the confines of university and head back to your parent's home. Now home, I'm starting to realise how little actual friends I have. I share very little interest with the people I deem as "friends", they don't particularly interest me or excite me and so I don't make much attempt to keep in regular contact with them. I used to have an amazing best-friend who I treasured so much but she for whatever reason decided to cut off contact with me. Ever since I lost such a great asset in my life I've felt very alone, and kinda sad. This, as well as a few other things have made my life mundane and I sometimes feel like a useless entity who isn't amounting to much. I never felt such 'emptiness' when I was younger, yes I was bored from time to time but I had my siblings. We'd spend so much time with each other and I'd also spend time with the other kids on the estate. There also wasn't much pressure to "get my **** together". We have moved house now and my siblings are now a lot older. My siblings are at the age where they are free to do whatever that wish and so regularly voyage on their own quests. Due to this, we are drifting further and further apart and I now find myself being the only one stuck in the house. I'm relatively ambitious and have made attempts to pursue my goals but it normally ends in failure and this of course makes me have doubts and drops my confidence down to a couple notches. I feel right now my life is moving at a rate of 0 m/s - but, I feel that this can change. I sometimes know what I do wrong and with the right amount of effort and perseverance, I'll be okay. I make attempts to keep busy in the house and do things I enjoy (although I always end up being parked in front of a computer screen) but it still doesn't compensate for the emptiness I feel on the inside. I don't know what I want and I don't have a particular question (although advice would be nice) and mainly wrote this to get my feelings out. I hope in time things get better, I hope, I really do. I feel hope is the only thing making me steer away from depression.

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