| At 44, I still consider myself a child of a messy divorce. TBH when I got married I never thought it would last. I walked down the aisle thinking "OK, don't worry, you can always get divorced." I always dreamed of having a wedding then when I had one I hated it. I just wanted the pictures so I can say "See, I had my white wedding. I didn't miss out on this." My parents divorced when I was 6 and my dad willfully moved to another state to get away from us. Not for a job opportunity but simply to be free of us which he admits. It was always a struggle to get him to pay child support and my mom was always stressed about money. The fact that she had me and my autistic brother to raise on her own didn't add to her sense of stability. I've always lived my life waiting for the bottom to fall out. I've been married now for 11 years. I never expected it to last this long. Sometimes I have trouble thinking like a married person because I never thought my husband would stay. I never expected anyone to stay with me. I just wanted to post this to see if anyone else has a similar situation. | |||
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