I am pissed. My WH just embarrassed me in front of our mutual long time friend. We were invited to his new home for a get together and he greeted me in the typical fashion by kissing both of my cheeks and a hug. My WH pulled me to the side and berated me that I stayed in our friend's arms a little bit too long. I brushed it off and went mingling with the other guests.
When I discovered his betrayal, I was so down on myself that I opened a match.com account just to see if I would get any responses. I never paid for the subscription and didn't delete the account. He found out but I don't see what's the big deal.
Since his A, I've made some changes to feel better about myself. I lost 40lbs; my clothes are more fitted and taking a lot of care in my physical appearance. I know I've been getting a lot of more attention from people in the street but I don't pay them any mind.
Since I discussed with him the fact I've never had an O with him, he's getting paranoid about my activities. Oh, I've also been socializing with my girlfriends more and leaving him with the kids. Now, he's doing strange things like checking my phone, my emails and my history on the web. I no longer friend him on FB sine finding out about the A.
He had refused to go to counseling so I'm going alone. This is a man who hasn't complimented me in a long time to the point my 8 year old has to point out to him-"isn't mommy pretty, daddy". This is also the man that I have to ask to touch me outside of the sexual act.
How humiliating? Now, he's feeling threatened. We're suppose to be working on our marriage and he seems oblivious how the A has affected me. I no longer believe in death do we part. I'm jaded now about love in general. I felt that I gave him everything I had as a representation of my love. I know that I have trust issues with him now but he gave me reasons not to trust him, I have never given him any reasons for him not to trust me. Hence, the fact he knows my passwords to email, phone and everything else. I refuse to feel obligated for his insecurities. Could use some advice.
When I discovered his betrayal, I was so down on myself that I opened a match.com account just to see if I would get any responses. I never paid for the subscription and didn't delete the account. He found out but I don't see what's the big deal.
Since his A, I've made some changes to feel better about myself. I lost 40lbs; my clothes are more fitted and taking a lot of care in my physical appearance. I know I've been getting a lot of more attention from people in the street but I don't pay them any mind.
Since I discussed with him the fact I've never had an O with him, he's getting paranoid about my activities. Oh, I've also been socializing with my girlfriends more and leaving him with the kids. Now, he's doing strange things like checking my phone, my emails and my history on the web. I no longer friend him on FB sine finding out about the A.
He had refused to go to counseling so I'm going alone. This is a man who hasn't complimented me in a long time to the point my 8 year old has to point out to him-"isn't mommy pretty, daddy". This is also the man that I have to ask to touch me outside of the sexual act.
How humiliating? Now, he's feeling threatened. We're suppose to be working on our marriage and he seems oblivious how the A has affected me. I no longer believe in death do we part. I'm jaded now about love in general. I felt that I gave him everything I had as a representation of my love. I know that I have trust issues with him now but he gave me reasons not to trust him, I have never given him any reasons for him not to trust me. Hence, the fact he knows my passwords to email, phone and everything else. I refuse to feel obligated for his insecurities. Could use some advice.
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