All throughout school I was bullied, I guess I was quiet and always very shirt and skinny. So I must've been an easy target, I was also awkward. I always had the "cool" people laughing at me, taking the piss when talking to me etc. Now I had friends, but the fact I was always judged by people (by a certain group, a rather large group but by no means the majority of my year), made me always nervous around people thinking they judging me, laughing at me in their head, think I'm weird.
Now I'm in final year of Uni, I have a few friends, but no one close, so no one I meet on a daily basis. I'm always nervous talking to people, and whenever someone looks at me, I feel they judging me the same way people did at school. :( Physically, I have put on weight, I'm like 5"7 so not exactly the midget I used to be, and puberty has somewhat served me well in terms of looks. But I'm still shy and perhaps awkward when around new people because of my past experiences.
It's so bad, even when people ask me to come out and hang, I think they're just being nice or taking the piss, and don't go. It's really affected me socially, I just can't seem to accept people liking me, I feel like there must be some other reason.
How do I overcome this constant paranoia and become more happy and confident with myself?
Put the internet to work for you.
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